ddlovexx Posted May 1, 2013 Posted May 1, 2013 (edited) Hey there, Having a rough time. Long story short, things were great in the beginning, we had our downfall, spent a little time apart... and decided to give it another shot. It's been 10 months. When we got back together he was back to putting me first, being wonderful, etc. A few weeks later it seems things have just gone back to the way they were. He's 24, I'm 22. I go to school and work 4-5 days a week. He works 6, sometimes 7 days a week. I see him Wednesday night, he sleeps over Saturday and leaves for work in the morning, and occasionally I see him on Tuesdays for a few hours maybe. I completely understand how tired he can be after work, but I also feel that he should want to see me, even if it's only for an hour or two before he falls asleep. Because he's so tired I have no problem with staying in and relaxing. In the beginning of our relationship he didn't work so much, now he got another job and chooses to work more at the 2nd job. He could ask his boss for days off but doesn't. He's not pressed for money really as he still lives with his parents. Whenever I try to bring up the subject about how it's hurtful and I don't feel important, he just gets angry and says that he's tired and that he still loves me and I'm asking for too much... therefore I no longer talk about it and just "suck it up". I only see him 2, 3x a week if I'm lucky. I've talked to both guy and girl friends who say that I'm just settling for his BS, that if he loved me as much as he says he does he would go out of his way when he could and that he would always make me feel special, even when we aren't together. The reason we broke up 2 months ago was because he was talking to other girls in an inappropriate manner. Though he didn't cheat, he lost my trust... I mean who knows what he would have done given the chance. After we spent some time apart he came back saying he loves me more than anything and made a huge mistake and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. He's definitely been better since we got back together, but I can't help feeling like both I and our relationship deserve a little more effort. I think he may be too young for the kind of commitment I want, and even when I tell him that (understandingly), he says he is ready. It's not all bad, we do have fun and w hen I am with him I am generally happy, but I feel that his passion for me has died down too much, too soon. He hasn't called me beautiful in months, he does things for me here and there and I always appreciate it, but I'm always the one doing more and going out of my way much more often. I try to give him space and even keep my distance hoping he will come around, but it doesn't seem to work. He fights and says if he didn't love me he wouldn't be with me, but I'm emotionally exhausted. It's gotten to the point where I'm now distancing myself to try to deal with the pain and the loss of how passionate our relationship used to be... even though he says he loves me more than anything, his actions don't always show it. I used to be a priority but now I don't feel important, work and sleep and family and everything else are more of a priority. And I might be kidding myself thinking that I one day might be #1 again. I don't like being on the waiting list in his life. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone and this is the first guy I've ever considered spending my life with, so it's tough to think about walking away from this. I guess I should also add that now I second guess everything. The nights he "works late", if when we're not together he's talking to another girl. I know the past is the past and I'm trying to keep it there but I can't escape my own mind. Honest opinions please? Edited May 1, 2013 by ddlovexx
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