Broke up 6 weeks ago.... Lost my job today... Keep me strong in NC...

[aisuru]

Guess I'm having a craptastic couple of weeks. I want to call him. I haven't shared my story quite yet. Been trying to put it into words.

 

But today, I was told that I am being replaced at work (where I've been almost 7 years). My job outgrew me. Partly my fault I suppose. I'm still employed right now while they look for the new person so I probably have another month or two of work while I try to find a new job. It's possible another area of my department, that I used to work in, may need my assistance once they find my replacement so I could remain employed through the summer. I came home early to just process.

 

I desperately want to call him. Please help me keep strong. I've been good at no contact, but oh my goodness do I want to call him.

 

I know not contacting him right now is for the best. I know if I was in his shoes, I wouldn't care. Ugh. Our breakup has been without drama (I'll share the story in the next day or so) so I really really don't want to contact him right now.

[aisuru]

I broke contact.surprised he responded. We've been texting for the last hour now. *sigh*

[bluecrabroll]

Well... just keep neutral with him. No "i miss you" or lovey dovey sentimental stuff.

[misswillow]

I'd love to hear your story if you'd like to share. You've given a lot of good advice here lately. I know it's often easier to give good advice than to follow it yourself (I myself have broken NC, so I know), especially when you are used to sharing so much with that person. But you can always start NC again!

[aisuru]

I kept it brief and emotionless, so no worries there. He asked me a few questions and I just kept my responses brief so as not to blow up his phone with needless texts. I figure if he really wants the details, he'll ask me later and the reality is we will likely talk again months down the road. Or if we never talk again, he really doesn't need the nitty gritty details.

 

It felt good to just tell him and hear him say "I'm so sorry." I haven't been able to tell anybody so to be able to tell him helped a little. That he responded so quickly was a nice surprise.

 

This is something I can get through and don't need him to get through. So it's okay. Thank you for your comments.