fiftyofsomethin Posted April 30, 2013 Posted April 30, 2013 Hey guys, I just ran into a bit of a dilemma. A mutual friend of me and my ex just invited BOTH of us to her graduation party for high school. I naturally just made a post in the event page that I would love to give her boyfriend some company but I needed to see if I would be working that day. And naturally after posting that, I realized that my ex made about 4 posts before me saying how excited she was to go to this. So then I just messaged the girl who's party it was saying that if my ex was going to be there, I probably shouldn't be there because she sort of doesn't want anything to do with me. She apologized of course and told me she wished I could still come. So as much as it will kill me to get to miss an opportunity to go to one of the only grad parties I am likely to be invited to, and possibly to have a chance to talk to my ex and maybe confront her about how things have been, I think that this is probably the best decision. It's frustrating how small these things are and they still cause me so much worry. Why can't I just move on? Why can't I just be happy and excited for single life like she is? How was it so easy for her to simply cast me and our relationship aside and now be so happy and finding other guys when our relationship made you so happy and you even admitted how attached you were to me? I just feel so betrayed, isolated, and detached from my life.
Author fiftyofsomethin Posted April 30, 2013 Author Posted April 30, 2013 (edited) So now that I have thought about it, I am starting to think maybe I should go. She shouldn't have power over whether I have fun or not. If I see her there, so be it. I am not going to be awkward unless she makes it awkward. She simply is unduly treating me like crap and I cannot stand it anymore. I don't appreciate how she could just break up with me for no good reason and have fun with friends and just ignore and avoid me altogether. I never did a single thing to her to deserve this. Nothing. This is complete and utter bullsh it. I don't need to take her crap, she has hurt me enough. I am losing sleep, losing productivity, and my grades are falling because I have been thinking and worrying about this so much. I must confront her about this. I am not about to let someone treat me in this way without any reason. It's not even that she doesn't have a good reason, she doesn't have ANY reason. Edited April 30, 2013 by fiftyofsomethin
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