bluecrabroll Posted April 27, 2013 Posted April 27, 2013 I want to tell my story because I need to vent. It's long but I've been miserable for a year. We're both 30, and successful doctors. We were in a LDR for 3 years, an hours flight apart. We met and became good friends 2 years before we started dating and I had to move away for a while. Before me she had been through 2 bad relationships in 3 years, the guys dumping her but still using her for booty calls, and never committing, etc. When I came along her friends were happy she finally found a nice guy that treats her well and wanted to commit. Our first year together she did two bad things to me but she was so prideful she never admits to doing wrong. She left one night in Vegas with a stranger until the morning and ended up with her phone and wallet. She confessed this to me the next day and swears nothing happened. We fought about it and I thought "hey this must be something from her past, we'll work through it." Things were great afterward. The second time she was in Miami and similar thing happened cause my sister saw it. I went hysterical this time, blew up her phone, cried, felt betrayed cause I thought she had cheated. Well she denied it and says she was just hanging out and turns it back on me that I overreacted, etc. We made up. The next two years were great. We went on trips together, she wanted me to fly home for couples events with her friends. We talked about moving in and marriage when I move home. I was not jealous, I let her do her own thing and never told her to stay home or anything cause I trusted her. The one gripe about this is that when I asked how her night went the next day she would say "fine". But she never was talkative to begin with. Our parents met and they'd talk and keep in touch. One day (one year ago from now) we had a petty argument and she dumps me. She says I'm her dream guy, the guy she wants to marry eventually but not now, etc. 1 month later she starts calling and talking and wanted to reconcile. We were starting things up slowly until one day she pulls a 180 on me and says 'I'm love you but not in love, blah blah". She wants a break to think things over, she's crying, figuring her life out, etc. Every other week I'd hear from her- "thinking of you, hope you are ok". She bought plane tickets to see me in 2 months. 1 week before she comes things were going well, we were joking etc. 1 day before she flies up she says she likes her freedom and wants to mae it official. She flies out to see me to break it off. We fought about it, says she can probably do better, she sees herself with me and would be content but not happy, she'd be settling. If she doesn't find someone like me in a few years she'll regret it, totally different from what she said to me 3 months before. And she points out that she never forgave me for being "jealous" about Vegas and Miami 2 years ago!! Says she still loves me and before she left stated that she wasn't sure still and was figuring things out. I was devastated. This was in October 2012. I NC her for a while, then we meet up for Thanksgiving. I eat with her family, etc. She tells me "distance makes the heart grow fonder." Then again in Christmas she picks me up from the airport, wears a necklace I gave her to show she appreciates me and invites me over for dinner at her parents. Then drives me back home. 3 weeks later she is seeing someone else. I find out in February 2013. Someone from work who she use to talk about a lot and became good friends. She tried to avoid telling me but I asked. Says I didn't do anything wrong except being jealous which was a deal breaker and she doesn't love me anymore. She proceeds to tell me to let her go if I love her, wants to separate our phone accounts and good bye. She doesn't want to hear from me but wants to be friends in the future and the only way things will work out between us is a reset. One month after we separate our phone she accepts a wired money transfer that has been sitting in her mailbox for 5 weeks, money was never an issue for her. I've been NC for 2 months now. My bday came without anything from her. My friends says looks like she's move on and used me. I feel like she had developed feelings for this guy while we were on our break and wanted to see if she could do better. It's been a year of me being unhappy and confused about our relationship.... a year of hoping things would get better. She's move on 3 weeks after seeing me and I'm stuck here sad, bitter and my life plans changed. I mended her broken heart cause she was jaded. I was the first guy she brought home to her parents. I was so far probably the best guy in her life. I gave her self-esteem back and helped her out with her career. She became popular, successful and now wants to see what is out there and moved onto the advances of another guy. I treated her so well and looked past her flaws. Everyone including her friends say I was the better catch and she's stupid for leaving me. Now I am nothing but another ex boyfriend in her past. I'm slowly letting go but bitterness brings me back. She essentially left me for someone else and gave me the worst reason for falling out of love with me. How can she do better than me? I want her happy because I love her but a part of me wishes she would one day apologize to me after this guy treats her badly, but who knows maybe they'll get married and be happily ever after. Thanks for listening. I'm still going to maintain NC, 3 months, 4 months, forever. I'm working on me. Lots of girls want to date me but I don't because I'm not over my ex yet. Don't want to lead anyone on especially this stage in my life. I hate being forgotten and I hate seeing how much she's changed. Funny how success can change someone so much. GIGS? probably. I hope nice guys don't finish last cause right now it's how I feel. A part of me wishes Karma will work now on her.
KraftDinner Posted April 27, 2013 Posted April 27, 2013 This is driving me crazy: what did you mean in your third paragraph when you said, "she left with a stranger in vegas and ended up with her phone and wallet"? Did HE end up with her phone n wallet? Anyway. I'm so sorry for what you've gone through. Ugh, the Vegas and Miami things would kill me. Sorry but that stuff just isn't cool when you're in a relationship. My take is this: she's 30 and you're the only person she's brough home to the parents? My first thought was that she's just not accustomed to or comfortable with someone who treats her well. You say she goes out a lot...well, sometimes people like that crave more drama, and a well-settled, respectful, stable guy (which it sounds like you are) just doesn't hold their interest long-term. As for calling you jealy over Vegas and Miami -- yeah, right. No way would any normal bf NOT react like you did. In fact, many would have dumped her. The fact that she'd focus on that as a "reason" for breaking up with you tells me that more happened there...
thefooloftheyear Posted April 27, 2013 Posted April 27, 2013 She sounds like a typical Borderline...(BPD) Run the hell away from that as fast as you can...YOU will never win, and you will drive yourself insane with a woman like that... TFY 1
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 27, 2013 Author Posted April 27, 2013 He ended up with her cell phone and wallet. I always wondered if something did happen but I will never know. She denies it still today. Saying "if I cheated on you it would be easier for me to break up with you". But knowing it won't change anything now. She destroyed my self-esteem. I will run far far away and ahead of her in life Looking back I wish I had dumped her but I tried to look past it and work things out. I was reluctant to have an LDR in the first place but I was tired of people leading her on so I decided to give it a try. I even relocate myself from coast to coast just to be in the same time zone. She was an awesome girlfriend aside from that and what happened this last year to me. I'm gonna give myself a non-humble pat on the back and compliment myself. I'm 30, successful, good looking and funny. I cook, clean, can build houses, farm, fish, sail and I want to settle down, and I'm dedicated and committed to being an honest doctor. I don't mess around with girls just because. I've traveled everywhere. We're from the same culture and we both grew up poor (worst school district in the state, high crime, 1st gen). She gave it all up because she wants to see if things are better with this guy. We'll see how this one goes. My life is slowly falling into place once again. It's hard to not be bitter and angry. But I'm displacing my love for her onto my patients and I think I've become an even better doctor. 1
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 28, 2013 Author Posted April 28, 2013 Gah. I hate her for being a coward and not telling me she had feelings for someone else but instead went the long agonizing route of leading me on. In retrospect I remember her saying "I'm gonna start dating in January, when I have more time." Come January shes seeing someone... from work. Like all perfectly planned out. Maybe they were even secretly seeing each other and her friends did not want to tell me. All they told me was move on, what she did was eff'ed up. Maybe I should just keep talking to her to let that guilt sync in and take away her happiness.
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted April 28, 2013 Posted April 28, 2013 (edited) You're a Physician, so I won't insult your intelligence- too much I have to agree with the poster who said she's probably BPD, That being said, you should have dumped her ass after her first joy ride to Vegas! WHO DOES THAT? TWICE! and you aren't expected to be jealous? And she actually turned the table on YOU? Seriously? (and THAT, my good doctor is one of the first things that makes her look BPD) You are correct that you treated her better whoever she's with, and yes, nice guys DO finish last. But I'm not talking about the "nice guy" in a good sense, I mean the "SWEETHEART, PLEASE LET ME DO EVERYTHING HUMANLY POSSIBLE FOR YOU, THEN WIPE YOUR FEET ON MY FACE, SO I CAN THANK YOU FOR IT" kinda guy. Thats probably how she saw you. You're self confessed to doing everything for her. That being said? Let her go and destroy some other "nice guy" after the "bad boy" throws HER away like yesterdays trash. Maintain NC and realize had you married her, she would probably have taken another guy on YOUR honeymoon. Edited April 28, 2013 by BrokenHeartedSavior Incomplete 1
juicygirl Posted April 28, 2013 Posted April 28, 2013 I was going to same too that she sounds BPD or bipolar. My ex has bipolar, but was only diagnosed towards the end of our relationship. Our story sounds similar to yours. On and Off, breaking up for seemingly no reason, disappearing, keeping you hanging on and then going off with someone else. Please pick up the pieces of your heart and run far far away from this woman, she'll have you taking pills to deal with stress and anxiety. Maybe there's nothing wrong with her medically, but she's 30 and hasn't had a real relationship so it's all new to her. How is her parents relationship? I'm just wondering where her issues come from, because it sounds like every time she feel stable and loved she gets bored and runs off seeking adventure and bad boys etc.
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 28, 2013 Author Posted April 28, 2013 I appreciate the bluntness and the eye-opener Brokenhearted. I do not want to be a doormat and definitely will not let that happen with the next relationship. I did stand up for myself a lot and set boundaries and precedent but I think I also let a lot of things go that any other guy would not have. I gotta have some self-respect. Sometimes even the smart people lack common sense. Juicygirl, her parents have been married for 30 years and they are really good people. They still travel together and have trips together. My ex on the other hand has issues with communication. She never talks about her problems to ANYONE (only to me back then), her mom did not know we broke up until I called her to apologize and say I am moving on (just being a gentleman cause she wanted us to settle down) until February (5 months after break up) and her friends do not know the reason for us parting. She would get angry if I contact her friends about anything regarding us. I knew she had been in two bad relationships when we became friends but never ever mentioned them or that she was going through a break-up with one of them. I thought it just wasn't my business to know. She has a lot of guy friends... all in their 30s who live together and fraternize and drink all the time. Her guy friends gf's all dislike her because guys always compare their SOs to her (so she says to me). From what I can tell I am her first stable relationship. She mentioned that she's been in LTRs before me but it would seem the guys did not want to commit or were interested in someone else or just wanted her for hook ups. And I'm not saying anything about me, but all her prior exes were UGLY (she's alright looking but I was never attracted to her in the first place; we dated and I thought she was pretty because I feel in love with her personality) and never imagined them with her. They were so mismatched. Even the guy she met in Vegas was UGLY (my sister and friend said that). Hence why her friends thought I was finally a good catch. When I met her her self-esteem was in the dumps and by the time we dated she had lost all her friends in med school. Honestly I think she likes the attention, something she's never had before and new things. Her mantra is "seen it once, seen it all". Stopped liking museums, movies, activities, etc. All she liked to do now was club, lounge and drink. Guys are always saying shes "cool" and easy to hang with. She's popular now at work and successful. If she never gives herself time to vent it all out or go through a normal breakup she'll bring her baggage everywhere eventually. It's a big slap in the face for her to say "3 years is nothing, I've had them before" and "anything we do together or have together I can have with any other person". "We should've stayed friends." "Next time I'll be with someone with more dating experience." (I've had one five year LTR and a couple STRs before her) Sorry for the long post.... my whole year of dissecting her and our relationship. One day I hope she'll realize what she's lost and reality will hit her in the face and how much she hurt me. God I hope she becomes a cat lady. I thought most people at 30 want to settle down... especially a woman (sorry for the generalization). At least I won't be her first divorcee!
thefooloftheyear Posted April 28, 2013 Posted April 28, 2013 (edited) I appreciate the bluntness and the eye-opener Brokenhearted. I do not want to be a doormat and definitely will not let that happen with the next relationship. I did stand up for myself a lot and set boundaries and precedent but I think I also let a lot of things go that any other guy would not have. I gotta have some self-respect. Sometimes even the smart people lack common sense. Juicygirl, her parents have been married for 30 years and they are really good people. They still travel together and have trips together. My ex on the other hand has issues with communication. She never talks about her problems to ANYONE (only to me back then), her mom did not know we broke up until I called her to apologize and say I am moving on (just being a gentleman cause she wanted us to settle down) until February (5 months after break up) and her friends do not know the reason for us parting. She would get angry if I contact her friends about anything regarding us. I knew she had been in two bad relationships when we became friends but never ever mentioned them or that she was going through a break-up with one of them. I thought it just wasn't my business to know. She has a lot of guy friends... all in their 30s who live together and fraternize and drink all the time. Her guy friends gf's all dislike her because guys always compare their SOs to her (so she says to me). From what I can tell I am her first stable relationship. She mentioned that she's been in LTRs before me but it would seem the guys did not want to commit or were interested in someone else or just wanted her for hook ups. And I'm not saying anything about me, but all her prior exes were UGLY (she's alright looking but I was never attracted to her in the first place; we dated and I thought she was pretty because I feel in love with her personality) and never imagined them with her. They were so mismatched. Even the guy she met in Vegas was UGLY (my sister and friend said that). Hence why her friends thought I was finally a good catch. When I met her her self-esteem was in the dumps and by the time we dated she had lost all her friends in med school. Honestly I think she likes the attention, something she's never had before and new things. Her mantra is "seen it once, seen it all". Stopped liking museums, movies, activities, etc. All she liked to do now was club, lounge and drink. Guys are always saying shes "cool" and easy to hang with. She's popular now at work and successful. If she never gives herself time to vent it all out or go through a normal breakup she'll bring her baggage everywhere eventually. It's a big slap in the face for her to say "3 years is nothing, I've had them before" and "anything we do together or have together I can have with any other person". "We should've stayed friends." "Next time I'll be with someone with more dating experience." (I've had one five year LTR and a couple STRs before her) Sorry for the long post.... my whole year of dissecting her and our relationship. One day I hope she'll realize what she's lost and reality will hit her in the face and how much she hurt me. God I hope she becomes a cat lady. I thought most people at 30 want to settle down... especially a woman (sorry for the generalization). At least I won't be her first divorcee! My friend...I get the chills reading this... THIS is/was my story. And yes, you are correct. How can an otherwise intelligent man fall for this nonsense? I, too consider myself a very intelligent person. Built and sold many businesses that I cultivated from the ground up. Well established in life and well respected by peers. Yet I too fell into the same nonsense. My ex shared the EXACT same characteristics as those you mentioned. To a T. And she is also well respected in her professional life as well. You didnt mention anything about the sex, but I would be willing to bet she was a dynamo in bed... AT ANY COST: Saving your Life after Loving a Borderline. I urge you to READ THIS ARTICLE....It WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE and allow you to gain some insight and understand what the hell happened to you. These women are emotional vampires. You might not know it now, but she, in effect, saved you from a lifetime of torture... Be well, if you want to PM, feel free.. TFY Edited April 28, 2013 by thefooloftheyear
McGriff Posted April 28, 2013 Posted April 28, 2013 Wow TFY---great article...it fits my situation to a tee, both me and her. Thanks so much for posting this.
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 28, 2013 Author Posted April 28, 2013 Oh my.... she fit everything to a T with BPD. I always thought it was weird for her splitting emotions and the one reason that jaded me the most was that a human being was capable of doing it so easily. Sex was awesome, but she didn't get her first climax until with me. (another clue for BPD I guess) Quoted from the article: "The more you demonstrate that she's lovable, the more disdain she feels toward you. It's kind of like that old saying; "I wouldn't want to join a club that would have me as a member," holds true here." She even said many times during our relationship "The more you come after me, the more I will pull away. I'm just that type of girl." Quoted this from the article: "During this relationship or after a break-up, your lover might state that you'd be "better off" being with, or marrying another. This is pure martyrdom--and as lucid or empathetic as it may sound, it has nothing whatsoever to do with genuine concern for your well-being! She's giving you an out~ but if you take it, rest assured there'll be hell to pay, as you'll be forever guilted for it." She said exactly this... "find someone else that respects you and appreciates you." The article also describes her as being a little girl. This last year I have felt like I was dealing with a little girl who was always confused and didn't know what she wanted. One question about personality disorders. The person is not aware of their actions (hardwired from the past) or is everything really intentional? Thank you for the article. I always thought she had GIGS. I will read it daily to remind myself what kind of person she was. I feel sorry for her but I am not responsible for her anymore, her new guy is! I had Turkish coffee five years ago and a friend read my fortune saying "You will move very far away for 3 years and be miserable. You will meet a girl with a lot of baggage. When you move home you will find true happiness." Haha 3 years are almost up and I am moving back soon. I always thought the baggage was the long distance relationship and her actual baggage. Now its something totally different. Too scary.
thefooloftheyear Posted April 29, 2013 Posted April 29, 2013 The scary part is you say its been a year and you are STILL not over it. Its rididulous, but thats the type of mindf.uck that this woman put on you.... Hang in there... TFY
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 29, 2013 Author Posted April 29, 2013 Its been a year because she gave me hope all the time... all the breadcrumbs and hanging out with me and asking me to come over and eat with her family. Broke up in April over petty fight May- she wanted to reconcile (realized I was missing something, the man I want to marry, etc) July she wants a break to think things over saying it'll be for the best, she bought plan tickets to see me. Figuring out her career, cries all the time. August asked me to go to Vegas with just her and I. October officially wants to break up. (you are jealous, I can do better, may regret it, etc) November come over for Thanksgiving with her family (distance makes heart fonder). Dinner date and movie. December- Shopping date and picks me up from airport. Dinner with family again and wears a necklace I gave her. (I appreciate you) February- tells me she has been seeing someone (friend from work) for 3 weeks already and I need to move on, that we've been broken up for 10 months already I need to get over this. -_- That's why its been a year! She probably has GIGS and BPD. I should've worked on just moving on and mentally preparing for everything. But being the smarty I tried to reason everything logically and with probability and fate. I wish I found this forum earlier and not lose some of the self respect I had for myself.
thefooloftheyear Posted April 29, 2013 Posted April 29, 2013 Its been a year because she gave me hope all the time... all the breadcrumbs and hanging out with me and asking me to come over and eat with her family. Broke up in April over petty fight May- she wanted to reconcile (realized I was missing something, the man I want to marry, etc) July she wants a break to think things over saying it'll be for the best, she bought plan tickets to see me. Figuring out her career, cries all the time. August asked me to go to Vegas with just her and I. October officially wants to break up. (you are jealous, I can do better, may regret it, etc) November come over for Thanksgiving with her family (distance makes heart fonder). Dinner date and movie. December- Shopping date and picks me up from airport. Dinner with family again and wears a necklace I gave her. (I appreciate you) February- tells me she has been seeing someone (friend from work) for 3 weeks already and I need to move on, that we've been broken up for 10 months already I need to get over this. -_- That's why its been a year! She probably has GIGS and BPD. I should've worked on just moving on and mentally preparing for everything. But being the smarty I tried to reason everything logically and with probability and fate. I wish I found this forum earlier and not lose some of the self respect I had for myself. That sucks...all she did was dick you around...what a cruel and heartless bitch...You dont need me to say it to you, but when she went awol on you in Vegas and Miami and "lost her wallet" that type of crap are absolute dealbreakers. Well, at least you know what you were up against...Just be thankful you didnt marry her... TFY
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 29, 2013 Author Posted April 29, 2013 Yeah, slowly I am realizing that I dodged a bullet and I can do so much better and I deserve better. I really hit the lottery with this one, I'm the only one in the class who's relationship ended and everyone else is hitched. She's an idiot. I'll never be friends with her. Can I be TFOY2? Haha.
Coping Vortex Posted April 29, 2013 Posted April 29, 2013 Your story sounds very similar to mine. My girl did the same things and said the same things and even gave me false hope with breadcrumbs. I can tell you you hit on a key piece that affected my ex as well. Low self esteem. The low self esteem will cause her to crave attraction from men that pay attention to her. It doesn't matter how much she loves you, the craving for the attention is overwhelming for her, trust me. My ex had the same exact thing. Her ex husband killed her self esteem. She claimed I gave her, her self esteem back when she dated me. You cannot fight the low self esteem issue. She will always crave attention from new men. Once she has validation from you, time after time it the affects seem to wear off and she needs attention and validation from someone new. Now what fools you is that you would think "Then why does she stay with me at all?" I was fooled by that too you would think someone that craves attention would be doing is constantly, but I have found even my ex stayed with me for two years before the low self esteem kicked. in. The esteem she got from you does hang in there for awhile but eventually it breaks down and she needs new validation. You will never appease her as long as she suffers from low self esteem. She needs and craves new attention eventually. It will happen again even to this new guy. The worst thing she can do is get married. If she does she will cheat and or divorce a spouse in the future. I did A lot of research on this as well as BPD as I had another ex that had BPD. To me it sounds more like just low self esteem than BPD. Trust me BPD has some wild and crazy behavior associated with it. Sounds more like a case of low self esteem. Just know you can't fight this or change that in her unless he got professional help. Low self esteem is subtle and that is the problem. My ex has behaved exactly like yours to the tee. I hate to tell you that the fact your ex got with you in the first place was probably due to low self esteem. Same in my situation.
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 29, 2013 Author Posted April 29, 2013 I'm sure she did get with me because she had low esteem at that time. And I am sure the new guy she is with now fed her esteem regarding her career because she always lacked confidence in it. She probably had an emotional affair with this person while we were on break and wanted to see where it would go, found something better. Regardless, BPD or self-esteem issues she really needs professional help with her strings of bad decision making. I'm thankful for finding this place cause it gives me some form of closure knowing I am sane and thanks for sharing your experiences with me. It is definitely helping me to move on and be stronger. Now I gotta work on not worrying about her well being with her psych issues.
Coping Vortex Posted April 29, 2013 Posted April 29, 2013 I'm sure she did get with me because she had low esteem at that time. And I am sure the new guy she is with now fed her esteem regarding her career because she always lacked confidence in it. She probably had an emotional affair with this person while we were on break and wanted to see where it would go, found something better. Regardless, BPD or self-esteem issues she really needs professional help with her strings of bad decision making. I'm thankful for finding this place cause it gives me some form of closure knowing I am sane and thanks for sharing your experiences with me. It is definitely helping me to move on and be stronger. Now I gotta work on not worrying about her well being with her psych issues. Unfortunately there is nothing you can really do about. I'm sure she did love you at the time. That is not an issue with the low self esteem. In fact she may still love you. But that craving for new validation is just too strong. Just realize that she has it and that will help you get through. And just remember, if this is the cause of her behavior, she will do it again to another. whether she marries someone of not. she could be married and still cheat, either way you will never be able to tame the craving for attention. I even remember telling me after the BU, that several men had flirted with her in a bar.....and she liked it. She told me this with a sad look on her face like like it was a disease and she couldn't help it and was embarrassed about it. So strange.
GorillaTheater Posted April 29, 2013 Posted April 29, 2013 Jesus, I got a bit seasick reading about your relationship. One more metaphor for good measure: there were more red flags with this chick than a May Day parade in Leningrad. BPD or not, you're well off without her. You have a bright future ahead of you. Treat this like the learning experience it was: you now have a clearer picture as to what to avoid in the future. And don't be surprised if she bounces back your way sometime in the future. If and when it happens, tell her to get lost.
thefooloftheyear Posted April 29, 2013 Posted April 29, 2013 (edited) Mr Crabs... The problem with these type of women is that they are always looking for that "sweep me off my feet" experience. Its their drug of choice. And unless they are absolute trolls, they will find willing swinging dicks waiting to oblige. They will sabotage every relationship they enter with this behavior. And they will blame YOU for making them do it...They see life in black or white. You could be the perfect gentleman, it wont matter. Your girl showed all the trademark keys. She keeps "guy friends" around to feed her ego. Thats a big one. Why? Because guys always will say stupid sexual things to women-even in a platonic situation.. They'll say..Ooohh your tits look great in that shirt...Or "nice ass" etc.. Some women find this embarrassing or offensive, these women eat it up-and feed into it... Sex appeal is their lure and they hone their skills carefully here. What red-blooded male isnt going to fall for that? I learned my lesson the hard way, so did you. Lets just be thankful WE arent the ones with issues. Because they seem like they are having fun, when in reality their whole life is one big emotional rollercoaster. What fun. TFY Edited April 29, 2013 by thefooloftheyear
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 30, 2013 Author Posted April 30, 2013 Jesus, I got a bit seasick reading about your relationship. One more metaphor for good measure: there were more red flags with this chick than a May Day parade in Leningrad. BPD or not, you're well off without her. You have a bright future ahead of you. Treat this like the learning experience it was: you now have a clearer picture as to what to avoid in the future. And don't be surprised if she bounces back your way sometime in the future. If and when it happens, tell her to get lost. When she comes back I will link her to this thread and give her the eye opener. Nothing else, no hi, or how are you, just this link. TFY- my sister calls her a troll. She is not that sexy, my mom never wanted to tell me until after the BU. Hence she will go for ANY ugly guy she meets at a club or work. Wish I could grab a beer with you guys.
Coping Vortex Posted April 30, 2013 Posted April 30, 2013 When she comes back I will link her to this thread and give her the eye opener. Nothing else, no hi, or how are you, just this link. TFY- my sister calls her a troll. She is not that sexy, my mom never wanted to tell me until after the BU. Hence she will go for ANY ugly guy she meets at a club or work. Wish I could grab a beer with you guys. If you are ever in the north east look me up lol!
Kobe2345 Posted April 30, 2013 Posted April 30, 2013 Im here for you BCB! you posted on my thread but i never got a chance to reply to you, Stay strong my friend!
Author bluecrabroll Posted April 30, 2013 Author Posted April 30, 2013 Im here for you BCB! you posted on my thread but i never got a chance to reply to you, Stay strong my friend! Thanks! Finally in my hometown for the first time in months. We are both from the same small town and she works here. Moving home soon cause that was always my goal. Learning to take it all in. Been basically replaying our relationship (went to NYC recently where we first started) and numbing myself and forcing myself to accept and realize that its over and letting myself feel the resentment and anger and not put her on a pedestal anymore. It's nice to think of it as the moment she left you that person you knew died. She's not the same person anymore. But man her mom's cooking is so much better than my mom's.
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