Buttercup84 Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 Hi gang, Well, I have not been on here for a long time. I came here in 2011 after a horrible break up. Now I am back on LS to hang out on the dating forum, which is fun. When my boyfriend of two years ended it with me, I had to pack my **** from our house and move back home. I had a huge breakdown, anxiety attacks and was at the doctor almost every week to talk. I posted on here all day and sent him so many messages, begging and pleading. After going NC for 6 months, he emailed me with the message you all dream about " I made a mistake, I want you back ". But he moved to another state and after a day he made out as if it was in my head. Last July he wrote again and said he was so sorry and just wants me back. Like a fool I fell for it again, as he said he would pay for my hotel and flight to come and see him. And it was not exactly a short flight. Long story short, he was still a jerk and after I came back he dumped me again. As hurt as I was, I got pissed off. I got so angry and him and mostly myself. After he dumped me I went straight NC. I started a 12 week fitness program and it changed my life. I was so on love with him, I swore I would always love him and no one would ever be as good as him. I just wanted him, we were soul mates and I would just die if heet someone else. Honestly, to me he was the one and I never wanted to love again. But.... I feel ****ing amazing ! I saw his dating profile today and felt nothing. I do not love him, do not feel anger towards him and do not feel hurt that he is dating. I have kissed a guy recently and went home with him and it was awesome ! Did not think of my ex at all, did not compare him etc. I love the fact that I can meet someone else now and enjoy the dating forum on LS. This forum helped me so so much. Was kinda bittersweet. Trust me, I did not handle that breakup at all. I was suicidal for christ sake. Now I am very very excited about the future. You WILL get through this, look at all my previous posts on here and how desperate I was. You will come on here too one day, to say " I have moved on " 15
Skalabanan Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 Lovely post, we need more of these sometimes. I've started seeing light at the end of my own tunnel, it hasn't come in the shape of a new "partner" but it's coming in the shape of finding the happy and carefree guy I used to be and I love it. Onwards and upwards.
OwlSoul Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 Lovely post, we need more of these sometimes. . Moderators should make a topic with links to good or more or less completed stories. 1
iouaname Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 This was a nice post! Thank you. Right now I feel like I'm never going to get over my ex or be truly happy without him. It's very tough, there have been times where I felt I was moving forward and doing better and then the very next day I would feel overwhelmingly sad. I just hope that I'm able to have some peace soon...
OwlSoul Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 You know, one of the ways of getting over is to fake being happy, untill you'll be happy. We are not our thoughts, or emotionas or anything, we are about our actions.
youngnlove89 Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 THANK YOU SO MUCH! I love to see posts like this. Very inspiring. I've been through bad breakups before the one I'm in. I was once cheated on and it took me two years to get over the schmuck. But I moved on! He is now married with a baby on the way and I have no feelings toward him at all. I'm completely 100% indifferent. That is my hope. I've been heartbroken before, got over it and now I can do it again. Do you think NC is what helped you the most?
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