steveT95 Posted April 21, 2013 Posted April 21, 2013 Last night I wasn't sure how I was feeling with the hole situation. The anger had gone, but I wasn't feeling back to good. Then I had a dream in which I went to her house and we had a chat. I heard what she had been up to. Nothing I like, just flirting with other guys. All of today I have felt like there was a hole in me. I just do not feel complete. Worringly I feel like I may be missing her again. Or at least missing liking her. I am just feeling weak today and not good at all, whereas yesterday I felt good. Mum says I need to start moving on. The ex just called aswell, I ignored it. She tried twice. I just feel so weak today and could do with some motivational or encouraging thoughts.
FlockaFlex Posted April 21, 2013 Posted April 21, 2013 Jus continue to stay no contact until you no longer have feelings for her and even after that you may not want to talk to her. It only takes time. Its up and downs. Trust me I know how it feels. I am going thru the exact same thing
i.am Posted April 21, 2013 Posted April 21, 2013 Yes, ignore her. Don't allow her to make you her lifeboat.
Author steveT95 Posted April 21, 2013 Author Posted April 21, 2013 I am. I miss who she was but I don't miss who she is now. Any thoughts or word of advice on how to stay positive and move on?
FlockaFlex Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 Logic - Mind Of Logic Ft. Camille Michelle Gray - YouTube Listen to this song. It always makes me feel better. And jus know there are better days ahead. Work on improving yourself and you will meet somebody one day.
Author steveT95 Posted April 22, 2013 Author Posted April 22, 2013 I just really really really want to talk to her. I know it will do me no good but I just want to tell her how I feel cheated on, I want to break NC so bad, but I won't. Cried like a baby last night, got very little sleep. Dragged myself into college, got into first lesson, started feeling okay, looked out the window and saw her drive past. Felt crap. Ah for god's sake
geegirl Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 I just really really really want to talk to her. I know it will do me no good but I just want to tell her how I feel cheated on, I want to break NC so bad, but I won't. Cried like a baby last night, got very little sleep. Dragged myself into college, got into first lesson, started feeling okay, looked out the window and saw her drive past. Felt crap. Ah for god's sake How many times have you lashed out at her for you to only be in the same place where you are today? She can't fix you. She can't take it away from you because she can't give you what you want. I will repeat this again and again. You cannot find comfort from your source of pain. You can tell her how much you feel cheated and an hour later, you'll be right back where you are. When you feel pain, feel it. That is all you can do. Breaking NC will transport you right back to that hole you were trying to escape. You can contact her, but just know you'll be struggling with these same feelings, tomorrow. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results.
Author steveT95 Posted April 22, 2013 Author Posted April 22, 2013 Thanks Geegirl, I won't contact her and if I am honest, she is on my mind a lot less than she has been since we met so I do feel like I am moving. I'm just struggling, I think after having a couple of strong days it has built up inside.
geegirl Posted April 22, 2013 Posted April 22, 2013 Thanks Geegirl, I won't contact her and if I am honest, she is on my mind a lot less than she has been since we met so I do feel like I am moving. I'm just struggling, I think after having a couple of strong days it has built up inside. You strong days are most times ego boosts that you get from contact. You'll most times get a few days of feeling strong and then you'll hit rock bottom because you realize the reality of it. It's going to be a rollercoaster of emotions. Up and down. Just don't react and stay NC. Contacting her will get you nowhere. NC will get you somewhere, slowly but surely. 1
Author steveT95 Posted April 22, 2013 Author Posted April 22, 2013 Aaaargh!!! Just went on facebook and decided to go through any old conversations and delete some because I saw an old one between me and her friend discussing our the first date that was about to happen. So went through the list of conversations to delete some and saw mine and the ex's. Saw that she has changed her profile picture again and it was like a stab in the chest. Why does she have to look so good. I can't cope, I really can't. I feel terrible. I am so lonely. I am so empty inside.
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