cluelessXgirl Posted April 21, 2013 Posted April 21, 2013 Okay peeps heres the thing.. I've been thinking about posting this here in quite some time..months actually. I can't figure anything out and I need help and advise. Last year I met a guy online and at first it was just a friendly chat. He is my age (17 then but 18 now) but not form my town. 200-300 km away.. after some time the chat became more flirty. He was getting over his ex and it was really hard and I was jsut there for him. We wrote the same things in the same second (it was really weird), we like the same things and I guess this is where lead us to another level. I was logged on every single day (just like him). One day he told me he wants to spend all his days with me, and then asked me if I would go with him when he leaves this country (which is my intention too) and how could I say no when he was my hobby, something I grew addicted too. I had nothing better to do specially it was after my grandfather died and I needed somebody to make me laugh and he could do that. Then we ended up discussing if he would move in with me and he agreed. I live with my granmother but she had plans to leave me at home alone so it was oging to be the perfect little life. One day I did something bad.. I wrote some things to him (he was online) but he didnt reply. I went mad and blocked him.. we were logging in skype and I could see his mood change and I tought he was just ignoring me and I did that to make him at least ask me whats wrong with me or have some reaction but nothing. So then passed a day then a week then another one and after two weeks we found eachother in some chats again. In the site we met. After some talking everything was fine again then one day he started acting weird...he closed off. I told him a lot of things.. that I wanted t be with him that I would even move into his town and he said he wanted me but the distance is too big, he would cheat on me and stuff like that. I continued writing to him and then he started to act even colder...he talked to me about other girls told me how they talk at night, sent me a picture of some girl (from another country) and after some more time I flipped. I told him I felt really REALLY bad because of him, that he doesn't act the same anymore and he just laughed. He said he hadn't lost me that much time and that I'd find somebody else. I flipped I called him a jerk and he blocked me. I felt like used trash and I wasnt sure what exactly changed...4 months passed and well I contacted him. He said he was trying to find me but never found me online (is it lies?). He says he's sorry but he wants to be alone. He writes to me and I don't...I even told him if he finds a girl like me again he should really hold on to her but he lost me.I havent logged on for some time because I'm scared of attaching again. Last week he did something pretty childish... theres a site where people can ask anonymous questions and he(anonymously) asked me "Who is (his nickname)" the deal is I haven't told his little name to anyone ever. He denied asking the question but its pretty obvious. I'm not sure whats going on anymore.. can anybody point me to whats happening? P.S This is the second guy I've wanted like that and I am not really a pro in the feelings and love. I would appreciate all opinion.
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