Can't take the unrelenting pain...

[WaitingOnAMiracle]

I've never done anything like this, posting about my private life on an Internet forum to strangers, hell I barely tell my friends about my private life but I'm going crazy over losing my ex and need advice and something to occupy me from calling and texting him. Mike and I have a tumultuous relationship that spans over 5 years.. I've cheated on him in the past and swore I wouldn't do it again. We brought our beautiful daughter in the world about a year ago but in October of last year we realized that we'd just disconnected from each other and that we were no longer on the same page and I was having the urge to cheat. Since I promised I wouldn't cross that line, I moved out of our home in November, it was very civil and the break up was mutual, we decided we weren't completely closing the book on us but that we needed to take space and time away from each other. I saw a few different guys here and there when I moved out, I had no interest and start any relationships with anyone else, between work and my daughter I didn't have the time or really the desire to try and fully move on. About a month ago something traumatic in my life happened that forced me to have to move out of my apartment, quit my job, and move in with Mike. Before I moved he went through my apartment and eventually it came to light that I had seen other people while we were broken up. He treated it like I'd cheated on him again and it's been a mess ever since. The traumatic experience I went through completely opened my eyes to what I really want and I finally saw the big picture instead of thinking short term and I realized that I've always known that I never wanted a future that wasn't with him. For the first couple weeks things were great and he said he was happy, was telling me he loved you, and alluded to a future together. Then Sunday night he comes home and everything has changed and he wants absolutely nothing to do with me, he completely blindsides me. Then I found out on Wednesday that all this week he's been seeing a new girl. Last week it was I love yous and spending every night together and now... Now he hasn't come home the last two nights. I feel like I'm going crazy, I cannot stop crying since Sunday, I haven't eaten since Tuesday, I'm falling apart and he's all the sudden completely shut down. I want him back, I need him back, I'll do anything to get him back. Does anyone have any advice or good books to read?

[intigo]

I've never done anything like this, posting about my private life on an Internet forum to strangers, hell I barely tell my friends about my private life but I'm going crazy over losing my ex and need advice and something to occupy me from calling and texting him. Mike and I have a tumultuous relationship that spans over 5 years.. I've cheated on him in the past and swore I wouldn't do it again. We brought our beautiful daughter in the world about a year ago but in October of last year we realized that we'd just disconnected from each other and that we were no longer on the same page and I was having the urge to cheat. Since I promised I wouldn't cross that line, I moved out of our home in November, it was very civil and the break up was mutual, we decided we weren't completely closing the book on us but that we needed to take space and time away from each other. I saw a few different guys here and there when I moved out, I had no interest and start any relationships with anyone else, between work and my daughter I didn't have the time or really the desire to try and fully move on. About a month ago something traumatic in my life happened that forced me to have to move out of my apartment, quit my job, and move in with Mike. Before I moved he went through my apartment and eventually it came to light that I had seen other people while we were broken up. He treated it like I'd cheated on him again and it's been a mess ever since. The traumatic experience I went through completely opened my eyes to what I really want and I finally saw the big picture instead of thinking short term and I realized that I've always known that I never wanted a future that wasn't with him. For the first couple weeks things were great and he said he was happy, was telling me he loved you, and alluded to a future together. Then Sunday night he comes home and everything has changed and he wants absolutely nothing to do with me, he completely blindsides me. Then I found out on Wednesday that all this week he's been seeing a new girl. Last week it was I love yous and spending every night together and now... Now he hasn't come home the last two nights. I feel like I'm going crazy, I cannot stop crying since Sunday, I haven't eaten since Tuesday, I'm falling apart and he's all the sudden completely shut down. I want him back, I need him back, I'll do anything to get him back. Does anyone have any advice or good books to read?

 

 

 

I was in a similar position me being a cheater kissed another girl. like you i couldnt eat or sleep for days...Whats the point? i damaged myself lost 6kg in 2 weeks looked like a zombie and didnt want to live without her.i would sell my soul to be with her.45 days later after her saying i love you i miss you i cant sleep without you she starts dating another guy!!! I wish my girlfriend would give me a second chance but she didnt. You had your second chance how many are too many? Be honest with yourself you f..ked up your relationship, so now what? first of all start eating, force yourself if you have to, calm down

and do some soulsearching find what went wrong what made you cheat, go to

church and confess if you think it will help you and lastly ask for a meeting with him keep calm and with a steady voice explain what went wrong your mistakes and your apologies DONT CRY dont say i want you back dont say give me another chance. Its up to him to believe you just be honest and talk to his heart and not his ears, good luck