Couldntbemoreupset Posted April 18, 2013 Posted April 18, 2013 My ex when things were good always called me 'the best'. I have written her a poem, we have not spoken in 3 months since the break, although I have tried through periods of contact and a month of nc. She saw me with another girl which was the only contact she has made with me to say, I disgusted her. She dumped me and 10weeks had passed, I didn't see anything wrong with a date. I have written her a poem (not in my character to do this) and plan posting it today. Thoughts on this: I live a life of loneliness now, I live my life in pain, Although surrounded by friends and family, things are not the same. I remember falling in love with you, coming to Dublin to see you dance, But sadly HERNAME it appears to me, I've blown life's greatest chance. I want to make it up with you, I'd love a fresh slate start, My head says this wont happen, I wish it would tell my heart. You said I used to raise your confidence, In your ability I had no doubt, I tried to be the best boyfriend, I wasn't, so you've cut me out. Each day I study how I failed you, I torture myself so much I long to hear your voice again, see your smile or feel your touch Hate thinking of you with someone else, or the thought you will move on But you deserve to be happy HERNAME and for that you cant be wrong What gripes me most and rips my heart, is how much I love and care, The separation from all of your life, from how much we used to share, The thing I used to live for was that you could 'always rely on Mark' But life has taken a terrible turn, and now Im in the Dark. I want you to know how sorry I am, for the ways in which I failed, My tracks of love were infinitely long, I am just sorry the train derailed. I hate that I lost my partner, but more that I've lost my friend. The relationship may have drawn to a close, but my love will never end. I wish I could take you back with me, to the memories that we had, A ride of smiles and love and laughs, instead of one this bad. This has been my hardest fall, I'm not sure I can pass this test, But regardless of how things transpire, know that HERNAME, 'You're the best'
Author Couldntbemoreupset Posted April 19, 2013 Author Posted April 19, 2013 No. Don't post it. any particular reason
EmptyWalls Posted April 19, 2013 Posted April 19, 2013 Wow! Such a good poem but the emotion and pain make it so sad. It wont bring her back but will give her the upper hand on you emotionally. A woman who dumps you and then says you disgust her for trying to move on from the pain she caused you is not worthy of this poem. Keep writing though its good to let it out in whatever way you can. But she must not see it, not now at least. Maybe when she wakes up.
Droplet Posted April 19, 2013 Posted April 19, 2013 The goal is to recreate attraction between you and her and this : "I live a life of loneliness now, I live my life in pain" and everything that follows is pretty much the opposite of attractive.
TaraMaiden Posted April 19, 2013 Posted April 19, 2013 any particular reason Because it makes you break No Contact, you come over as needy, pathetic, desperate, clingy and she will not find this endearing, she will be repulsed by it. Other than those, no reason. Just DON'T send it.
todreaminblue Posted April 19, 2013 Posted April 19, 2013 My ex when things were good always called me 'the best'. I have written her a poem, we have not spoken in 3 months since the break, although I have tried through periods of contact and a month of nc. She saw me with another girl which was the only contact she has made with me to say, I disgusted her. She dumped me and 10weeks had passed, I didn't see anything wrong with a date. I have written her a poem (not in my character to do this) and plan posting it today. Thoughts on this: I live a life of loneliness now, I live my life in pain, Although surrounded by friends and family, things are not the same. I remember falling in love with you, coming to Dublin to see you dance, But sadly HERNAME it appears to me, I've blown life's greatest chance. I want to make it up with you, I'd love a fresh slate start, My head says this wont happen, I wish it would tell my heart. You said I used to raise your confidence, In your ability I had no doubt, I tried to be the best boyfriend, I wasn't, so you've cut me out. Each day I study how I failed you, I torture myself so much I long to hear your voice again, see your smile or feel your touch Hate thinking of you with someone else, or the thought you will move on But you deserve to be happy HERNAME and for that you cant be wrong What gripes me most and rips my heart, is how much I love and care, The separation from all of your life, from how much we used to share, The thing I used to live for was that you could 'always rely on Mark' But life has taken a terrible turn, and now Im in the Dark. I want you to know how sorry I am, for the ways in which I failed, My tracks of love were infinitely long, I am just sorry the train derailed. I hate that I lost my partner, but more that I've lost my friend. The relationship may have drawn to a close, but my love will never end. I wish I could take you back with me, to the memories that we had, A ride of smiles and love and laughs, instead of one this bad. This has been my hardest fall, I'm not sure I can pass this test, But regardless of how things transpire, know that HERNAME, 'You're the best' beautiful poem sometimes it is hard to let go, especially when you figure out you really love her so, sending this poem would be a mistake, poetry will not fix this break, you have so much to give, and only one life to live, so heal while you can and move on, this love you shared is now sadly gone.......... a beautiful poem, write on poet....and keep them close....write your feelings down they are private and your heart doesnt need more scars by sending them....hugs.....deb 1
Author Couldntbemoreupset Posted April 19, 2013 Author Posted April 19, 2013 If im honest i want to give her the upper hand. She deserves it. I deserve to be hurt for how much I stopped being me, for how grumpy, and jealous, and bitter I got. The girl deserves the world x
TaraMaiden Posted April 19, 2013 Posted April 19, 2013 If im honest i want to give her the upper hand. She deserves it. I deserve to be hurt for how much I stopped being me, for how grumpy, and jealous, and bitter I got. The girl deserves the world x Oh puh-leese, stop with this spineless behaviour. You broke up, it's over, finished. Move on. It really doesn't matter in the long run what happened, it didn't work, you phukked things up and that's that. Learn, let go, and grow older and wiser. But please, quit with the pathos, it does nothing for you. Ugh....
soccerrprp Posted April 19, 2013 Posted April 19, 2013 Clarification, please. You went on a date w/ another woman while you were dating this lady? Now you want to write a poem confessing your love? There's a clear disconnect here. Anyway, you were the transgressor it sounds. I wouldn't post it either. If the two of you were still friendly or loved each other, I could see how this could be romantic (aaahhhh.... ) But there is bitterness on her part. I suspect she will scoff at it and be convinced that it's not worth the paper it's written on or html tags it was needed to post. Yeah, just move on.
Author Couldntbemoreupset Posted April 19, 2013 Author Posted April 19, 2013 Clarification, please. You went on a date w/ another woman while you were dating this lady? Now you want to write a poem confessing your love? There's a clear disconnect here. Anyway, you were the transgressor it sounds. I wouldn't post it either. If the two of you were still friendly or loved each other, I could see how this could be romantic (aaahhhh.... ) But there is bitterness on her part. I suspect she will scoff at it and be convinced that it's not worth the paper it's written on or html tags it was needed to post. Yeah, just move on. No 10 weeks after we broke up actually
Author Couldntbemoreupset Posted April 21, 2013 Author Posted April 21, 2013 Oh puh-leese, stop with this spineless behaviour. You broke up, it's over, finished. Move on. It really doesn't matter in the long run what happened, it didn't work, you phukked things up and that's that. Learn, let go, and grow older and wiser. But please, quit with the pathos, it does nothing for you. Ugh.... TARA KNOWS NIL!!!! Ex contacted me after receiving my letter. Going to have another crack. silly lady that u are tara xxxxxxxxxx
Sososad Posted April 21, 2013 Posted April 21, 2013 Fair play .. Wish you the best of luck. As people on here only try honestly advise but Your always going to know the situation better than us! Other wise good news and good luck Keep us posted !
Compromize Posted April 21, 2013 Posted April 21, 2013 It's a well-written poem. Sounds like you sent it and I hope it works out for you. Tara - You hard-lined NC approach is 98% dead-on. It's probably more like 99%. At this point I am not sure I want to be in the 2% that actually get back with their ex's. Mine has shown her true colors too many times. I just wish I could stop thinking about her. 1
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