confused and hurt

[aunnierah]

i feel lost and con fused im back with my bf now for 5 months he still wont tell me he loves me we dont make love because he said he cant there is something wrong but he wont even try or try to make me feel good im confused about the love thing because befroe we broke up he loved me so much

 

that he would do anything to make me feel loved and wanted i left for my self and it had nothing to do with him i was going throught something i felt i had to do my self and that was a pill addict i neened to get clean for me myself and i was afraid then to tell him afraid of loosing him totally because of the

 

feer he would be let down, by leaving i feel i lost everything to get clean now im clean and un happy we have like i said just about 5 months now been back together and this not knowing if he loves me hurts i dont know why im here if he cant say he loves me it makes me think he might not but why would

 

he want me here right see i dont get it i can handle the fact that there is no sex right now and just because i can dont mean i want too but loving me is more then sex could ever be thats something that we can work out in time but as for feeling loved i dont i feel lost and confused i talk to him write him

 

notes and nothing i do or say works im so depressed i see our friends going on loving there partners and going on with there lives and i feel me and my man are stuck i just want to go on like everyone else and feel loved and wanted i want to hear he loves me be reminded and not hear silence when i tell him how i love him

[Merin]

Your post is kind of hard to understand.

 

However from what I can get from it, you were addicted to pills and left the relationship without really telling your boyfriend why you wanted out?

 

IF that is the case here, then sorry but I can't really blame your boyfriend at this point for feeling more than a little cautious in putting himself out there again.

 

When you love someone, your supposed to trust them.... you lied about your addiction (out of fear of loosing him) and in doing so, you've lost his trust that you're not going to dump him again.

 

I don't know what excuse you gave him for the break up..... but it could reveal why he is now behaving in the manner he is.