CompleteFailure Posted April 13, 2013 Posted April 13, 2013 It's absolutely hilarious that we endure our own pain that comes with staying together in our situation because we can't stand to know about the pain we're causing one another when we're apart. Everyday you feel the guilt of your actions and everyday I'm torn apart with knowing he's replacing me in your life. What kind of twisted love/hate relationship do we have?
Author CompleteFailure Posted April 13, 2013 Author Posted April 13, 2013 We used to go for walks together. You used to love the chance to have these moments. You still do, only it's with him. You say that to me with a light in your eyes that takes the light out of mine. What do you care? Why should I? One day, I'll find my courage to leave you and never look back. I love you so, but I need to remember the way you make me feel without concern, without any understanding.
aeren944 Posted April 13, 2013 Posted April 13, 2013 Like they say... there's a VERY thin line between love & hate...
Author CompleteFailure Posted April 13, 2013 Author Posted April 13, 2013 How I'm trying to not care about you when we wake up. I accept the fake apologies and say the things that make you smile. I don't want to have this ego fight again, yours is too big for the both of us now. How I can't stop from hating myself looking through all these photos. Every day of that trip started good and ended with me not appreciating you enough. My ego always getting in the way of your happiness. How you've changed into someone I don't know anymore. How I'll never get the chance again to make things right with that woman I knew.
Author CompleteFailure Posted April 14, 2013 Author Posted April 14, 2013 When you drop me off and I have to look for the right words to say. Knowing that "see ya babs" doesn't mean anything to you, anymore. Knowing that you have to vent your frustrations @karaoke instead of having a night in because I couldn't keep it together. Knowing ultimately that only hurts my chances in the long run, yet I keep doing it. Knowing that I'll see you shortly and I'll go to bed with you, pretending none of this is happening.
nada2013 Posted April 14, 2013 Posted April 14, 2013 I fell in love with a man three years ago, and still trying to move on, but know in my heart he was the only man for me. my heart is never the same again, nor does it really belong to anyone other than that person....you never forget and never stop loving.
Author CompleteFailure Posted April 15, 2013 Author Posted April 15, 2013 Every time I fall for the same traps and let it get under my skin. Why I keep letting you bring me down and why I keep letting you abuse me emotionally, mentally. How I'll think to myself you're such an ugly person inside and yet I can't walk out the door. How tomorrow I'll take everything I thought back.
Author CompleteFailure Posted April 17, 2013 Author Posted April 17, 2013 I went NC for one night and called again. Today is just tomorrow's cycle of yesterday. You've left and I have to accept that. I don't want to feel any romantic feelings for you. I need your company but I must kill any feelings of love for you. I'll just take whatever I want while I'm here cause I don't want to give a sh.t anymore.
Damaged23 Posted April 17, 2013 Posted April 17, 2013 I went NC for one night and called again. Today is just tomorrow's cycle of yesterday. You've left and I have to accept that. I don't want to feel any romantic feelings for you. I need your company but I must kill any feelings of love for you. I'll just take whatever I want while I'm here cause I don't want to give a sh.t anymore. You called her?
Author CompleteFailure Posted April 18, 2013 Author Posted April 18, 2013 You called her? Yep. I couldn't bare to think of her finding that final farewell. I honestly am not ready for it. I thought I was in a better place last night. I panicked today when I thought I accidentally deleted all of our old photos. I went hunting for them. Relief when finding them, though sifting through them only brings back all these strong emotions. I take a look at the dates.. 5 years ago. We looked so happy and in love. I forgot about those trips but now I remember them like yesterday. I remember our conversations prior to those photos. I remember the way we laughed. How the mind tricks us into thinking those days weren't that long ago. I missed the signs and now I'm missing those yesterdays.
Damaged23 Posted April 18, 2013 Posted April 18, 2013 Man, you have to stop doing that to yourself. Come on, I know it hurts, it's hard, but have some self control. You gotta do it for you!!! This is no way of going through life. Gotta be strong, otherwise you'll never be able to move on.
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