lissa90 Posted April 12, 2013 Posted April 12, 2013 It is officially over. We broke up about a month ago, it was a will we won't we type situation as we broke up due to circumstances of his past. He wanted to remain friends, close friend. One day I would be okay with that, the next my heart would break. To cut a long story short, I phoned him on monday and said I couldn't do this. I couldn't remain in his life as I would always be wanting more. He said that it hurts him that I want to cut ties but he understands..then he asked me to do one thing, he wanted my last words to be of me telling him I loved him. I said I love you, he said I love you too and then he put the phone down. Man, my heart literally broke in two that night. I kind of feel better, knowing I can move on now, but I feel so empty, lonely and sad. I miss him so much that I randomly burst into tears. Everything now reminds me of him. Its only been 2 days..but it feels different this time. I've not been tempted to text or phone. The thought of looking at his facebook (we've unfriended anyway) makes me feel sick. I'm just at the stage now where I feel noone will understand me like he did. I bared my soul to him, every single flaw in my being, I showed it to him and his love didn't falter. I just feel like I'll never find someone like that again...I'm not even sure if I want to either. My heart hurts. But two days of complete no contact helps so much. Low contact is such a killer.
Cogee Posted April 12, 2013 Posted April 12, 2013 Even my heart just broke in two while reading that. I know it's cliché but it gets better and you will find someone else. It feels like you won't but the world is full of other people just like you who are wondering if they will ever meet another and at some point you will run into each other. Take care, and keep up the NC. It sounds like the way things ended it will be easier to maintain NC just because the final words don't leave much room to. Good luck!
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