BLo7687 Posted April 10, 2013 Posted April 10, 2013 He came to see me the other day. The day before that he kept hinting he wanted to see me. He left for the Air Force to go to boot camp today. We were on/off for 2 years. I posted on other threads that I took him for granted and didn't appreciate what I had. It's been 4 months since the BU. He moved on quick and started dating someone right away after over a month. We eventually left things off on good terms. We were NC for 3 weeks up until over 2 weeks ago I texted him happy birthday and since then he started texting me here and there. I haven't seen him in 2 months and he asked to come see me for the last time before he left to go to BMT. I was actually kind of surprised he asked because I didn't think I would see him again. It wasn't for too long but he basically just wanted to say bye and didn't want to think "what if" incase something bad happened to me or him. Obviously he did not tell his new gf that he came to see me. He called me "babe" by accident and said he wasn't over some things but did not want to go into details about what he wasn't over. We both established we were both each other's most important relationship and wished each other good luck with everything. Told me he didn't know if there was a future with this girl yet and didn't know if it'll work out but that he'll see where it goes. That she's nice, supportive, and treats him good. He said he likes being in relationships, that it makes him happy and doesn't like being alone. He said he will probably call me during boot camp. After we both said goodbye to each other he calls back minutes later saying "I'm sorry I called you babe. I don't even know why I called you that. I don't even call this girl babe in person. Sorry." and I didn't really have much to say. After I went home from work today, I felt this sudden surge of sadness. Maybe it's the fact that he's leaving and I probably won't ever see him for a long time, the fact that I lost someone good that I took for granted or maybe it's because the loneliness has kicked in and all this partying bull**** and hooking up with other guys that I've been doing is just temporary ****. Haven't found anyone consistent or anyone that interests me. No one compares to him, at least not at the moment. Before he left today, he texted me saying "Sorry about everything again. You were important in my life. I'll see you again someday. Tty sometime soon!". Now a bunch of people have told me he's not over me. I basically took this as a bunch of breadcrumbs and me being a back burner incase things don't work out with this new girl in the future. Then again maybe it's a good thing he left because he'll be out of sight out of mind and I can move on for good. I honestly don't think we'll ever get back together. It just wasn't meant to be, not at this time. We're both going through different paths in life now. If we ever cross paths again, I'm leaving it up to fate. In the end I just want him to be happy and I hope this girl is treating him better than I did.
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