spirius Posted April 9, 2013 Posted April 9, 2013 It was our two year anniversary yesterday or would have been. I'm at a point where I accept what is happening and there is no point worrying what she is up to (though the feeling still washes over me intensely every so often) I also don't think I would take her back after all the doubts and pain of the last month. There has been some contact. I went out on Saturday and was really forgetting it. Then a random bloke headbutted me in the face. I went outside, got upset because I had been happy for first time in week and called her (drunk). She was very nice about it, asked if I wanted to come over etc to which I said no. She asked me to text in the morning to let her know I was okay. I did so but didnt reply to some subsequent casual texts. Then got a double text. Felt like this was because she realised I had been out and actually living. Gone back to not talking and feel more and more that I am lonely rather than missing her. Getting there. Gradually. Still worry about specific blokes and then think "she could be doing anything with anyone at any time...there is no point in this". LS has been so useful for venting No doubt will relapse again, but have some hope!
youngnlove89 Posted April 9, 2013 Posted April 9, 2013 It was our two year anniversary yesterday or would have been. I'm at a point where I accept what is happening and there is no point worrying what she is up to (though the feeling still washes over me intensely every so often) I also don't think I would take her back after all the doubts and pain of the last month. There has been some contact. I went out on Saturday and was really forgetting it. Then a random bloke headbutted me in the face. I went outside, got upset because I had been happy for first time in week and called her (drunk). She was very nice about it, asked if I wanted to come over etc to which I said no. She asked me to text in the morning to let her know I was okay. I did so but didnt reply to some subsequent casual texts. Then got a double text. Felt like this was because she realised I had been out and actually living. Gone back to not talking and feel more and more that I am lonely rather than missing her. Getting there. Gradually. Still worry about specific blokes and then think "she could be doing anything with anyone at any time...there is no point in this". LS has been so useful for venting No doubt will relapse again, but have some hope! I'm glad you are moving on to acceptance, although I really think it's time to fully block her. You are doing a good job ignoring her, but what if she says that one thing that makes you stumble and fall? I don't want that to happen. A little part of me feels like this could just be a way to win her back, almost like this is a game of you blocking her. I think you are still stuck on the hope of getting back together. and that isn't wrong, but can you handle false hope? Have you considered blocking her forever?
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