Rainy1030 Posted April 9, 2013 Posted April 9, 2013 (edited) ...and maybe some hope, for my daughter to not be going through this long distance visitation crap. In my head I know how likely this relationship my ex is in will work out. I do. Yet somedays, especially when its almost time for our daughter to leave and go visit her dad for two weeks (she just turned 3 ), I need reminders, I guess. I worry this will really go on for the next 15 years of her life. So the short version-they dated when she was 14. She moved away before they wanted to split up. He cheated on her while dating, broke up with her, talked occasionally over the years, slept with her while she was pregnant and married to her first husband, she refused to leave him for him. Year into our relationship, emotional affair with her, super quick, within days of talking, lots of fantasy (lovey dovey, marriage, buying a house, having kids, no logistics, just this is what we want, now). Ended it when I found out. Occasional friendly contact over the next 2 years, another emotional affair, this time within a day of contact, same stuff, though more lovey dovey stuff vs other fantasy life stuff. She was married a second time, so emotionally cheated on her 2nd husband with him. A year later, he gets depressed, goes to see her for a weekend, cheats, and leaves me for her (moves in after that weekend). Also cheated on her with me (alcohol and sad me=bad move on my part, I regret it heavily...) already. She doesn't know the last part, but she does know he cheated on me with her. And obviously left me for her and split up his family. Basically, my psychologists, our friends, everyone seems to feel that he's heavily infatuated. I tend to agree. But on days like this, I get worried...I don't want them to work out, I don't want my little girl to go through this for the rest of her childhood (he moved 4 hours away, away from his family and friends, and also cut off contact with all of his friends, local and long distance), I'm working on getting over him myself and I don't want him back-he's a stranger to me now, he's been horrible to me and cruel and I don't like whoever he's become-but I do want him back UP HERE so my little girl can have her daddy back and maybe I can get him to start counseling or something. Sigh. Anyway, I know, I know, this is a bad post, I shouldn't care what he does or worry about this, but I get so sad knowing my daughter will be gone 2 weeks again soon I hate this! I know for soooo many reasons that the chances of them working out are so low, but...ugh. Edited April 9, 2013 by Rainy1030
Author Rainy1030 Posted April 10, 2013 Author Posted April 10, 2013 Work sucked, I couldn't shake being sad today I hate feeling so good and then bam, I feel like crap again.
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