AwptiK Posted April 9, 2013 Posted April 9, 2013 Closing in on a month since the breakup happened...and her birthday is on thursday, which conveniently marks that month. My sadness is getting worse with time. I felt so okay that first two week span. The third week started awful, but numbness overcame me until just now... For the first time since that third week, I find myself constantly on the verge of years. I don't understand it. There's a lot that I don't understand, but I guess the more time passes the worse it should get for a little bit...with the "final" feeling setting in more. This is the hardest it's been to keep NC.... I so want to text, I so want to blab away about stuff that I've already said and that she already knows. My head is almost trying to justify that some little apology or phrase would change things, but I know it won't. I miss you.
fabulousgal Posted April 9, 2013 Posted April 9, 2013 I'm so sorry. Stay NC and keep your dignity. It's hard. You are very sweet to say you miss her on here so simply. I felt your emotion. It's only week 3, it can only get better for you? I keep saying that it's been about 11 days NC and I'm alive. I have a lot of false hope mixed with the terror of how he treated me and know this is best. I miss him too.
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