Gruesome Posted April 9, 2013 Posted April 9, 2013 Have gotten some truly solid advice here in the past giving it a go again! My ex and I have always had a great understanding of each other to the point of really knowing one another like no others - had a consensually bad break up. We both had a hand in screwing it up by not knowing how to act around one another anymore .... Does that make sense? I love her seriously like I can love no other I just don't see it being possible with anyone else. She has made it clear she loves me and has redoubled her efforts every month since we've been apart. I moved out of state for work almost immediately after our last breakup - I had to. I needed to and she understands that. We didn't talk for about 4 months and have just over the past 6 months been kind of rebuilding our friendship. Which is where our love originally bloomed from. I adore her. She adores me. We've broken up and gotten back together a number of times, usually due to our individual stress levels due to a period where we both unemployed - we ****ed up and gave up. I've spent the past 10 months working hard to straighten my life out so inevitably I could make it back home to her. I feel like I am a dull knife and she sharpens me... I've always been an internal sufferer - things may be terrible for me, but I just really honestly don't want those I love(family, HER, close friends) to worry about me. In doing that I find myself lying about the most ridiculous things just so she won't worry about me... Not to mislead her maliciously, never.... Engine blew in my car a few months back, she thinks I've fixed it. I was laid off for two months prior to us getting back in contact - I told I had been working and saving the whole time. Truth is I lived on a $100/week BS job for those two months. I've finally gotten my **** together and turns out she's always seen right through me. She knows me better than I know myself. She has been making efforts to be there for me, the whole time - but my pride got in the way. She confided in my best friend all of this, and told him she isn't going to say anything to me about it until she sees me in person next month. She's coming down for a week to see me. My pride has gotten me into this and I know I need to come clean. I'm planning on doing it very soon I just don't want her to lose any love for me. I never lied to impress her, I just didn't want her hurting over the thought of me hurting. Any tips, insights...? Sorry for the novel, I just am at a loss of what to do.
Infnitysign Posted April 10, 2013 Posted April 10, 2013 Pride is a sin, and it will destroy you I've learned that trying to save your pride isn't worth it, but dont show her how sappy and bad your life is. Maybe its time to ask for some help and really move on and get back together and try and help yourself first. When you can help yourself and take care of yourself she will care for you. Don't hide or lie to her just to protect your pride. It's unattractive to lie and even more when you cant take care of yourself. Come clean and stop being so insecure, as a man you should have already been truthful from the start.
Author Gruesome Posted April 11, 2013 Author Posted April 11, 2013 Pride is a sin, and it will destroy you I've learned that trying to save your pride isn't worth it, but dont show her how sappy and bad your life is. Maybe its time to ask for some help and really move on and get back together and try and help yourself first. When you can help yourself and take care of yourself she will care for you. Don't hide or lie to her just to protect your pride. It's unattractive to lie and even more when you cant take care of yourself. Come clean and stop being so insecure, as a man you should have already been truthful from the start. I did! We had a Skype date and I told her everything. She already knew everything but was waiting for me to tell her. She said she feels closer to me now, closer than ever. Things are looking pretty good . We planned her trip up here and I think we are going to get back together.
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