aimsyk Posted April 6, 2013 Posted April 6, 2013 So my boyfriend and I have been together 20 months.He works away at the mines. Approximately 3 hours drive away, but he catches a work bus. He is stuck in the middle of nowhere, so he can't really see me. He works out there 3 out of 4 weeks. He has been out there maybe 9 months now. He got back from work about 5 days ago. I ended up seeing that he was online on Facebook and was just curious if he was home because i saw some house lights on. He said that i could go and see him after i asked if he was alone (he lives with him mum, who also does work out in the mines) We ended up talking.. when he first saw me i felt like he was going to cry, his face looked so happy to see me but there was something else there.. like he was going to beg for me back. We ended up talking. I said that i had been thinking and we do need a break, it'd be good for us, or to at least start 'dating' again. Like go see a movie and have dinner once or twice when he is home. He agreed. I came to the realisation that he was afraid we would just bicker like we used to. i promised i'd had a wake up call and that i had changed. - Not that i actually had anything wrong with me- but I was changing to try and better us..We obviously talked about more topics but we were together. We ended up having sex, he and i both asked several times if we were both ready for this. He didn't want me to feel like it was just about make up sex. I felt it was right? I mean he was my boyfriend again. We ended up watching a movie, he showed me a song he learnt on guitar. I was very happy at this point. Then maybe 5-6 hours later, i was going to head home - He had said earlier that he wanted me to stay the night- I decided i would go home, just so i wasn't in his space right away.. He then randomly snapped and said he didn't want to actually work things out, he just felt bad about it as soon as he saw me. He thought he wanted to work things out but realised he didn't anymore. I LITERALLY broke down, i wouldn't say i begged, but i did ask why i didn't deserve a chance, after all the chances i had given him. This guy was a real angry guy, never communicated, that's all i ever asked from him, was to talk to me.. then this probably wouldn't have happened. He used the excuse that i need to find someone who won't be an ******* to me. I saw him twice after this night. I have since calmed down, i have been talking to many people and they think that i should move on. Some think it's very very weird behaviour. I have asked him if he cheated or if there was someone else, but i do know he would tell me. He is the type to be honest. I mean if he wanted to break up he would have blurted out that he cheated just to make me get the point. Last night he actually drove past me while i was on the way to catch a bus into the city - to go shopping - I randomly get a text from him maybe 3 hours later asking me 'whats doing??' i said 'i'm just shopping.' He then said 'i saw you at the bus station' and 'where?' 'shops aren't open, where are you?' i replied with - i'm in the city, it's late night shopping here, just getting a skirt for work' He didn't reply and i haven't heard from him. It's now saturday night and i haven't made contact with him. I felt those texts that he sent me really messed with my head.. does he want me back or is he just trying to suss out what i'm doing?I'm still on his Facebook.. he seems to be happy, talking to friends at what not. He is going out. I've been out myself, i haven't done anything like hook up with guys, i'm just not like that.. I just wonder if that's what he needs. To be single? And if so. Why not be honest when i ask him? I NEED HELP. Men are so complicated and heartless. I know he wants to be friends, he told me.. he said he might need a year - i know, very specific- to realise who he is again. He said if we're meant to be we will be. All i'm doing atm is pretty much not talking to him... is that going to make him think i'm ok. Or will it **** his head up like he's doing to me? Not even three weeks ago he came home and said I want to marry you and move out… ☹ so confusing! Help boys!
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