for666 Posted April 5, 2013 Posted April 5, 2013 asck somfing plz just to cool my head down well first of all im 23 year old (libra man) and i have date a 19 years old (cancer women) for 7 mounth it was amazing! i must sey we have alot in common and always found mutal understanding to cut shot... i never told her i love her until she sed it alone (around 4-5 mount) but i always showd her that i love her we did have some argument and i wanted to finish it 3 times (sex problems,her bff gf problem, her changes in meeting up) but we solved it easyly by talking and nofing bad happend ( we had a mutal understanding in why im engry i told her and she changed it and it wasnt somfing drastic to change, i didnt change her personality i love it) she did love me i just know it ( sex tell alot and if a women gets 3-4 orgazms on 1 mine its a good signe) and she always kiss's me in a very pashion way and just jumps on me well 1 mounth to the end ,things got bad she went to a new BASE (btw she is in militery) and now she cen come only ones a week ( she came every day from base before that) and she got an unswear to colleg in a defrent country to go learn 7 years for a doctor -_- yeh it was bad to hear , but i got over it, i fought i wude move out to her after she finish's first year well and the mounth begins - she started to call less and less ,didnt call me when she went to party whith a friend ( thats my boundry if you go out NP but just let me know where the f you are and whith what BFF) and i got pissd alot becose of that and started arguing whith her alot about it and trying to understand what happening but she just sed soryy (made some exuces) and didnt explain alot and continued whith her ways.... i became a little bit niddy becose somfing was wrong and i didnt really understand what well after couple of time she asckd for a break and i sed no lets just cool things out i will stop calling you and you take your space call me when you want to ( me understanding her feeling again) she agreed and we had a wierd day ,she kissd me for about an HR and more ,lookd at me alot and smiled whith a wierd sad smile, when i left her to go home ive seen in her eyes like this is the last time she gona kiss me it even felt like it... i didnt make eny contact whith her for 4 days when she was in the base just wanted to give her space so she will understand that im not needy i just dont understand what happens... and was freaking out a little (i felt somfing wrong) for those 4 days she calld me each day just to chat a little and we pland to meet up in the weekends and go to the movie we wanted to go somfing wierd tho each day i went to sleep i wude wake up whith pain in a heart and had a dreams of how she breaks up whith me every time... and walla i started to feel wierd and than calld her Best friend to check it out when speaking to her she sed its true somfing is wrong whith her she feels you are a to series and she is getting a cold feet i was shoked and didnt realize it for a second and sended my GF message "WTF you dont have a corage to come to me and talk about it and i need to find out it thrue a friend wth happens its really not nice off you" she didnt respond for a while and i calld her like 7 time ( apperently she was sleeping) than she recalld to me and sed we gona meet up so we meet up her BFF told that she just going to talk to you and try to sort things out ( thats what she suggested to her becose im BFF whith her 2) we met up she told me how strest she is and all that becose she need's to get readyy for an examp and walla i hear the 4 magic words " i wana break up" i was shoked but didnt act crazy i just asckd |WHY?| she didnt really respond to it and started to make some wierd make ups its not you it me i dont need a boyfriend now becose of the army i got to much on my head and bla bla ive tryd to explain that life is somfing hard and love is somfing need'd to workd on just tell me what did i do wrong and lets try and fix it she sed NO im soryy and you are amazing and all but i cant... you are not wrong you are amazing but i just wana break up. well i got up and whent to friends and got drunk! i sended her a massage when i was drunk seying to her " its k im not engry ty for what we had and good bye i know its not gona work enyway have a good future and so on" and stopd a contact than ive got some wierd mixd massage from her first of all she didnt delete me from facebook and i opend a INSEGRAM for my self to accupy my brain and uploaded there a picture that i DRAW for her 2 second later i get the LIKE on the special PICTURE i didnt respond 2 weeks late i call her best friend to asck whats up and she was whith her so she SED TELL HIM HI from me i didnt respond than i started to just wonder WTF happend what the f did i do wrong??? and asckd her BFF wtf is wrong she didnt really gave me explenation she didnt really understand it either. but sed to me that she is in hurt like you but its over. so i did what i have to do i send her massage " lisen darling i dont know what your doing but it seem's like your sending me signals you want to be together or in contact and this is inapropriat and it makes me feel worse just f stop it im not a puppy that cen be playd" she respnded whith anger seying she was just trying to be nice! and she's not playing whith me she just dosnt want to be that kind of ex's that dosnt even sey hi to each other" well the converstaion flyd away and i started to asck WHY WE broke up she respnded by i dont know i didnt feel the same and i asckd IS IT ME? she just didnt respond... and than she just stopd and sed lisen its hurting me to talk about it lets just make it easy and move on... well i didnt pushed more after 2 days i sended her a massage seying "lisen i dont want to be needy or somfing i just miss you as a person and want to be friend nofing more" she respond whith a YES so we talkd a little she asckd what happend to me i sed I WAS F FINE!!!! we tryd to talk but always end'd whith a feeling that we are atracted again to each other... so we kind of stopd it than i went to a club whith a friend to have fun , meet up some girls.. you know hang out and there she was.... like a my f luck day.... i sed hi to her a my BFF and her BFF and started to dance whith her BFF she than freakd out and went to a defrent stage and started to dance there ( i fought we are just friends nofing more) and than it hit me! she still have feeling for me and dosnt want to open the wounds... im hurting her and me.. F IT i went hope upset whith a fried and deleted all my connections to her in facebook my cellphone pics memorys all! well it all went down a week afrer its a mounth after break up and i heard that she started dating... i got deprest and need'd to find out if its true so i went to BFF of her and mine and had a nice meeting up we walkd and spoked and than i asckd her this question lisen i dont know what do to i heard she's dating someone and im geting depresdd she loughd alot and sed - you 2 are weird same question she asckd me 2 days ago.... what did she asck? if your dating someone or if ive seen you dancing whith someone in the club.. i was shoked and than started to wonder wtf is wrong!!!! wtf did i do wrong i did nofing wrong! why why why why! why the f cant she give me an unswear and i cen JUST MOVE ON and why the hell she asckd if i date someone else? is she still want me... more talking less speaking i calld her its now 1 mounth 2 weeks after the break up i asckd her to return somfing that i left at her house and to meet up for 30-1hr and talk a little bit ( she agreed ) well we meet up and started the talking i didnt start pressuring her and started it cassualy just you know how you are and showd her how great i am even whithout you... and than after couple of time started to speak about US and again same thing she didnt give me enyreasons why did she break up nofing just told me how great i am at sex and how wonderfull person i am but she dosnt want to try nofing... i tryd to explain what love is and she didnt really get me i tryd to explain that we just need to work thing out not just get a cold feet and back down... she sed she dosnt feel the same and its bad and we cant stay friend becose she still have a physichal attraction to me so its not good lets just move... we need to live... bla bla bla no actual reason or understanding of what the reason is well i sed to her ty for all i tryd my best now you wont see me again ever! (when i sed it she did that wierd noice off ohhh... whithout even realizing it) and than i sed nvm you will regret it she sed no i dont think so (WHITH a face of i dont know maby) i sed you will cose i KNOW ME! huged her and sed gb i wish you the best... well its over now week after this she started to flirt whith one dude he is Midget next to her and she always sed she wont date midgets.... but she dose now.. XD thats wierd well and she started to be more active going to party whith BFF doing things she not even likes ( cose i know she is not) she changed started to be active on facebook... that she didnt used to all changed i dont know whats the reason what happend and how did it happen im just a little bit upset cose i still wana know the reason why becose now i gona date this new girl that i found and i feel i dont want to becose i havent close the door yet i want my close door plz i really like the new girl i found and i dont want to bring bad emotions to a new relationshiep and f it up! in my opinion my ex is still not immature but i wana be shore 100% its not me and that she have this faze of life... i want to move on.. my life wont stop cose one got away... this is the FIRST btw break up for me for no reason before that i broken up got dumped and all (got dumped but thay always came back 3-6 mounth later but i wude sey F IT i dont want to) but never like this whith no close doors... it just isnt right.. so here is my story soryyy for bad eng im not native but i wana hear a nice feed back plz plz plz
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