SadAndLonely Posted September 14, 2004 Posted September 14, 2004 He said he'd be jealous if I found someone else, and that he'd be a little upset. He said the door isn't closed on me, but we have to be friends right now (which I agree with completely), but that he doesn't know what the future holds. He may find someone else, although he doubts it, or I may, which he thinks is more likely. He'll still give me hugs, and I can call if I need to talk. He still cares about me, and there's a part that wants to be with me still, but a bigger part that doesn't, because we weren't working out. A lot of the things he isn't thrilled about regarding me are things I want to change about myself anyway, but I want to do it for me, not for him. But still, I wish he'd see those changes and want me back... He does miss me on occasion, especially at night, but he's more or less over me for now. He doesn't know what the future brings. He said I'm the only one he would want to ravage him (we were joking about something, but it made me feel good), but that he only wants to be friends for now. I don't know whether to have hope or not. He doesn't want a girlfriend, I don't want a boyfriend, but I still love him. He wants me to be there on Saturday for our group games that we have, but has acknowledged that we won't be touching. This is so hard. If I have faith or even hope, I could be badly hurt again. If I give up completely, it'll still hurt, but I'll also lose out on ever trying with him again. If I don't give up, I may have to face seeing him find someone else. Is there any hope? I want to work on myself, but is there even a semi-decent chance he'll want me back someday?
mighty bop Posted September 14, 2004 Posted September 14, 2004 More background please. We have no idea what is going on. Chris
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