Kittkat Posted April 3, 2013 Posted April 3, 2013 So for the past several months I have been in a slightly confusing relationship. We knew each other for a year, and started things up just as I was leaving for school which is two hours away, so it has been long distance the whole time. (Warning, long description here) The first half of Christmas break was great, we spent a lot of time together and I felt like things might begin moving forward. Then after new years things got strange. He injured his back and for a while I blamed his behavior on that. But it continued. He seemed to lose interest, and didn't make much of an effort to see me. And when I did come over, we didn't really do much and I didn't feel a connection. I returned to school and he remained distant. For the first time in months he didn't text me every day, and when I tried to text him our conversations were short. Days or even a whole week would go by without me hearing from him. I was frustrated and very confused. I wanted to talk to him about it but I didn't know how. I came home for a weekend and he didn't even attempt to get together, and we barely spoke. I decided that I wanted to end things, but I could never quite find the right words and opportunity to do so. Last week was my spring break, and things still hadn't changed. We texted a little more over the weekend, and sunday night I was feeling stressed and emotional and confided in him a little bit about some personal issues not related to him. The next day as I was getting ready to drive back to school he asked if I wanted to come and see him before I left. I hesitated, but figured that this might be my chance to finally figure things out and break things off with him. Better in person than by text right? So I get to his place and we go up to his room. He starts talking about how things have been for him the last few months, and how things have changed. His mother is dying from cancer, and it has been extremely hard on him. I knew this already, but he hadn't talked much about it with me. He talked about how he has been starting to accept the fact that soon he won't have any parents, and how he is just trying to live one day at a time. Then he mentioned how he had a falling out with a close friend, which he said was expected because "not many people can deal with me and all my issues". He also apologized for dropping off the radar with me, saying that he didn't want to bring me down with all his issues going on. He didn't want me to worry about him. He talked about how it would be summer soon and that I would be back then, and that he will eventually move on from this. I didn't know what to say. Here I was, ready to break up with this guy...and I just couldn't. The hardest for me was when he mentioned people not able to deal with his drama...How could I then say, "oh by the way, I don't want to be seeing you anymore". It honestly broke my heart. But it had kind of been broken already through him not communicating with me. I should have mentioned that, I should have said that I had been confused by him ignoring me, and how I wasn't sure where this relationship is headed, but I just couldn't find the words to do so. So I just tried to comfort him and acted like my normal self. So here I am, back at school and feeling totally lost. I don't know if what I did was right or not...I don't really know what to do. TL;DR? Guy I am sorta in a relationship with was distant for several months, I felt ignored and no longer wanted, so I decided to break up with him, we talked a few days ago and he said he was trying to not involve me in his issues and depression as he sorted through things (his mom is dying of cancer). It broke my heart and now I don't know what to do. Help? Advice?
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