zacharisharris Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 (edited) ACT I: The Meeting My story begins on 3rd of June 2011. I met Vaso on a concert. I was 16 back then and Vaso was 14. Though we had been texting to each other for weeks before the concert. This was our first face-to-face encounter. We instantly fell in love with each other. It was like meeting your soulmate all at once. We were talking and being so sweet to each other. On our 3rd date I asked her to be my girl. She accepted with our first kiss. Many weeks later I went to Platamon for the summer. I was only a train or 30 minutes away from her. We were on the phone every day and texting all day, since we couldn't see each other. It was amazing! It was pure LOVE. There were times when I would visit her. And oh boy, THOSE times were the BEST. In the middle of July, I met a girl, Zoe and we made out for a couple of minutes. We were both drunk. I don't know why but I didn't feel any guilt for what I had done. On August I went on a trip to Germany. We hadn't seen each other for 18 days! I returned on 18th August. The next day was our 2month anniversary. Though on 19th, some random number texted me and we started texting to each other like crazy. It was a girl I didn't know, Jenny was her name. We were talking about extreme things like, meeting with her when I still had my girlfriend and talking about sexual stuff. ACT II: Uh-oh, Iceberg Ahead. Something inside me about Vaso had now changed. I was feeling so confused as to what to do. I didn't know what to do. I was so lost, for the first time in my life. On 20 (anniversary) Vaso came to Platamon. She told me how mush she wanted to meet me(because of the anniversary thing..) but I told her NO! (because I was feeling weird & confused apparently). I went out with my friends that night.. AND I BUMPED INTO HER. I hugged her, kissed her and we went for a walk. She instantly asked me if everything was ok. I told her that something personal was happening in my life and that I could tell her. She asked me, what can I do? I told her: "Just leave me alone(meaning I needed time)" She left crying. I didn't talk to her for a week. On 27th I visited my cousin and came to a decision. Break up with her. Over Facebook(did this just because I couldn't wait till Monday to tell her.) So there I was, single. Still texting with Jenny, prepping for the BIG MEETING. I meat Jenny, we had a great time together. I can pretty much say that she was the girl I wanted to marry back then. But after our first great meeting. She disappeared. I mean literally. Never saw her again, never heard from her again. It was like she vanished into thin air! Looked on the school she had told me she went? Nothing. I don't even know if Jenny was her real name. ACT III: You are well & truly on your own. And then there I was. Well & truly on my own. 4 months passed. Vaso was still on the back of my mind. On December it hit me. I would get her back. I arranged a meeting. I met her on 4th January 2012 and after a long and convincing talk about what had gone wrong we were back together. Something inside me though knew that it would not be for long. You see, I had some friend issued back then. Huge issues. I practically did not have many friends because of a huge argument. So let's say Vaso was not my first priority. Well we had our time, I was distant, I treated her a little bit like ****(meaning I would text her whenever I wanted or go out with her and never went downtown with her, because I felt kinda ashamed, didn't think that other people would find her attractive (AND BELIEVE ME SHE WAS/IS!). After 2 months it was over. The day we broke up, 17 March 2012, I sent her a message calling her names and naming every single time I had cheated on her. And after that, I didn't speak to her for another 2 months. ACT IV: How about a third chance? All those 2 months I didn't event think of her, I mean I felt fine. Just fine. On 20th May she poked me on Facebook. We started texting again and before I knew it we had arranged a meeting. On the first meeting I didn't exactly know if I wanted her back so I didn't ask her to be with me. She left crying. And a week later, we met again and after a long and casual talk we were together. For the third and BEST TIME. The best were about to come. ACT V: Love is all around. Things between me and Vaso were just perfect. I loved her more and more everyday and she did the same. We were going for bike rides, we went swimming together, it was amazing. PURE LOVE at its best. And we had many great times together that I cannot refer to in detail. We even made dreams together. That one day we would have kids, and get married and live on a penthouse in New York. AND WE MEANT EVERY SINGLE WORD. It was amazing. On September school started. You see I was on the last year of high school. HERE IN GREECE WE HAVE EXAMS AT THE END OF THIS YEAR, THEY ARE CALLED PANELLINIES. These exams determine our FUTURE and our entrance to the University. They are just TOO DAMN IMPORTANT. As far as Vaso is concerned, I Introduced her to my friends, we were going out together. She had some problems with HER friends that were hurting her and not letting her think very clearly, but eventually she overcame everything. On November I managed to get her Facebook account password and gave it a spin through the messages. I found out that there was a guy at her school that she kinda liked and she was thinking of cheating on me. But finally she called it of because she realised how much she loved me. I told her. Then things between us got weird. I mean we were still in love but were not talking so obsessively like before. I even started asking and asking her again and again insecurity questions. *Are we going to full fill our dreams? *How do I know that you will never think of this guy? *Do you love me?/Will you always love me? Imagine these and other insecurity question all the time, everyday. She was feeling frustrated. On February 1 2013. She gave me the first shot. Harry, she said, I wanna break up with you. Well we said about how we will be together again this summer, after my Panellinies. First I thought that the reason was the other guy.(Remember?) No, she was just feeling frustrated and confused. She was even nervous because she had ballet exams coming on March. So I didn't talk to her. The future from there was like this: 1st Contact: She contacted me after a week, asking how I was doing and on my name day we even went out together. I asked her to be with me once again, start all over. She said yes. But this was kinda a testing period after 3 days , she called it off because I was still asking her the same crappy questions and she couldn't determine whether she wanted to be with me or not. WHEN WE BROKE UP THIS TIME I FELT SO SAD AND LONELY THAT I TOLD HER A BIG LIE: I told her that my Grandma died, just to make her feel sorry for me and come back. And there she was again, but was it just PITY? 2nd contact: After a week, we went out again and she was telling me about something horrible she had done. On Valentines she went out withe the other guy and she was talking to him about me. She felt vulnerable and the other guy kissed her. She gave in only for once. Than the other guy asked her to be with him. She said, I just want to be with Harry.(Me!) She told me how bad she felt about that, like she had betrayed me. And she told me that know she knew that she wanted to be just with me. Long story short, got back together, were very happy. But from day One, I started asking the same things over and over. Till our anniversary day(a week after we made up), when we broke up again. 3rd Contact: She started talking to me after some days. This started happening everyday. She really believed that I could stop asking and change. And I believed it too. But one day she found out about the death lie. She said: NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN! 4th contact: She calls a week later and asks how I am doing and everything. After this call, we started talking everyday again. She was kinda sick so I told her I would come by and treat her. I went there, things were cold at first but when she laid to bed, I kissed her, we started making out. I went the other day again. Things were more passionate this time. We were cuddling, making out in bed, she even undressed me! But I was still asking questions, whether we will be together again. She kept replying I don't know but she was doing it with a sweet smile like she was saying yes. On Sunday( 17 March 2013) she had her ballet exams. She told me she did great. We were texting. So I finally call her on Monday. She was talking in a cold way. I told her in a very enthusiastic mood that I NOW HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS. And I have figured out that she doesn't want us to be back together. And she replied I don't want to be with you. For now. She said that after the exams she could think clearer and she thought about us. And the answer was NO. But I understood that she left hopes for the future. And that she know we will be together again. After the classic question thing, we hang up and haven't talked ever since. A couple of days later we had a huge argument on the phone cause she thought I have told her more lies. So I ask her If I wanna come for you, shall I do it? And she says do whatever the fark you want! She was pissed! Shall I go for her in 2 months? But I told her on the phone shall I come for you? And she was like screaming. So I ask her are we done forever? If I come and ask you to be together again? And she says I never said that but I would probably say no. Next day we talked a bit on FB. She told me the foreverential NO. And she told me good luck with my life etc. Well, I guess IT IS OVER. So a week later she texted me on Skype saying: " Look..There is no reason for you to reply. I just want to apologize for the way I spoke to you. I am only saying this to be good with myself and because I did not consider it right, speaking like this. I am sorry. " And right now she is still posting things on FB only for me to see, then deletes them and 2 days ago she called me on a blocked ID and she wasn't talking but I managed to understand that it was her (somehow heard her voice when clearing her throat) What I have understood so far and highlight my questions: I have to FIND MYSELF. NC is the method that not only will make her miss me but will also make ME the man I used to be before I got beat down. The subject of NC is really ME finding MYSELF. Have already started working out and stuff Setting a time limit on myself is unnecessary pressure. I will go for her when I AM READY, when I am not her hopeless needy b***h anymore(sorry for that ) I might be in June, I might not be. My GF did not mean what she said on the phone( good luck, we will never be back again and stuff..) I have developed a certain mindset to put into play after I am READY(Could be in June or could not be). And by ready I mean when she will have missed me and when I will no longer be her doormat. Vaso has been and is still thinking of me and having feelings for me. She keeps setting 'traps' on Facebook or posting things only for my eyes to see. Good thing is, they do not affect me! Well given those 2 months and not having initiated contact first, she will feel that I am long gone. I already told you that she is expecting me on 31 May. Well, I am sorry but I wont be there. Also, not having wished her on Bday she will say, Ok he is gone. That is where I will put the element of surprise into action and call her, tell her to meet, catch up. And then play it cool on the meeting, NEVER talking about RS and just have fun with her, the way we were first dating. And on a latter date, I start to talk about it or SHE will. 1) What do you think of my story? 2) Do you think that if I am ready, and play this mindset it will be successful? Edited April 2, 2013 by zacharisharris Retouching
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