Giac10 Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 Me and ex were trying to work things out and get back together, anyway she got fed up and said something isn't working and we cant be together for awhile. I do take responsibility because i was impulsive and hectic during our arguments sometimes. Since then she has found a new prom date and spending time with her girlfriends, going out and partying and hooking up with other guys. She says she does love me and I think after shes done having her fun for awhile she will come back but im not getting my hopes up. I think that if she does come back it will be hard to accept, I will think "oh now that you had your parties and prom and senior week you want me back when its convenient for you." I went to the hospital two days ago for having a breakdown when she said no to meeting up with me and talking to me, that i disgust her and my **** will be out front if i want it. I told her about the break down and she said it was dumb but she isn't as mad at me anymore and we talked for a little. The last time i spoke to her i told her that I will be making changes in my life and will learn to control my impulses which caused me to lose the girl of my dreams and I wont mess it up for the next one. She seems totally fine without me and its kills, I wish i wasn't desperate and begging and smothered her when she wanted to be done for awhile, I felt stupid instantly for hurting myself over her and telling her probably made her look at me differently, She swears she loves me a lot still. Shes single and allowed to have her fun, I just didn't think she would go out and do things like hooking up so quickly, it was only last Sunday that we had great sex... What are your opinions, is this girl worth the pain? I want to move on but im not going to lie that part of me hopes she will come back. (by the way i am now taking Prozac to battle this depression)
siankat Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 How would we know if she is worth it? She didnt treat u bad....just said she didnt wanna be with u anymore. It has nothing to do with your worth as a person id like to make that clear. U are a separate person from her so when u say u wanna improve urself then thats what u need to do, alone, not parallel to being with or trying to be with her. Painful? unfair? yes. But that's life. You will be outta school soon and that will be a catalyst for a new chapter. At the moment things are too unbalanced between u 2, u need to regain ur personal power. I am sorry to hear that u have an inclination toward depression and that relationship fall outs could trigger a major episode for you. So do i. Im much older than you and what helped me was respecting myself as i went along (like cleaning the house bit by bit as u go along), instead of ignoring the mess and leaving an almighty bombsite to clean up at the end - mental collapse from an accumulation of unresolved problems - (which is too much for anyone to handle well).
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