Seachelle1 Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 I got it last night. I didn't even realize it was him until I called the number back and got the voice mail. (He didn't leave a message.) I had taken him off my phone when we originally broke up. I didn't have his number memorized because I had him under his name in my smartphone. So I genuinely called back not knowing it was him. Why is he calling me? I deleted the number off my phone so I can't see the number and can't re-dial it and I won't try and get in contact with him. NC is still in place. Haven't looked at facebook or reddit or his blog. I turn my face from his home when I walk outside and walk with my head down and my glasses off when I go outside (he moved next door with his new gf). I'm working at this. I am in between pleasure (he cares for me! I'm not a horrible person and I deserve love!) and pain (why does he hurt me so much?). I know. I need to work on my self-esteem apart from him. I'm going to counseling. My next appointment is Wednesday. I'm working hard to get better and be a kinder, calmer person. Does anybody have words of wisdom, comments or good thoughts to send my way?
Sososad Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 God knows.. It's not fun how even a missed call can make you Analyse or go through possibilities maybe its better you didn't take the call.. Where would u be now .. Fair play on your no contact so far your doing great !
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