blindhope Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 So quick recap: GF of 7 yrs. Picks up and moves out "needs space" turns out "space" is a client of hers at drug rehab for teens where shes a counselor. She loves him after a few months and I'm the bad guy. (She may not love me, but why be a hater, I was always good to her?) Now she wants to take my dog too. So I know I've been treated like **** and everyone, including her family has told me I deserve better. That she is wrong and when she realizes how bad she messed up and comes running back, I better not accept her. (Her family would like a reconciliation as long as everyone's happy) I know I've been treated like crap, that she's completely changed and not the woman I loved. So why is it every time I hear WHEN she realizes her mistake or WHEN she comes running back... I feel hope. I rationalize how we can work it out. And I'm right back where I started. I am slowly putting her behind me and moving on. Feeling better everyday. Feeling whole again and ready to be a "me" and ok I'm not an "us" . But I still think if she came back(No signs from her she ever will) I'd be there waiting like a fool.
iouaname Posted April 2, 2013 Posted April 2, 2013 A broken heart is a lot like a broken compass - it's going to lead you in the wrong direction. Right now, you're in a position where you're devastated and where you are letting your broken heart dictate your decisions. Slowly but surely, you'll get to a point where that's no longer the case. Give yourself some time and treat yourself well, and then if she does come back, you'll be able to make a decision with your brain and with your new-found sense-of-self rather than with your broken heart. 5
Author blindhope Posted April 2, 2013 Author Posted April 2, 2013 Oddly enough after I posted she broke NC with an email. "I'm hurting too" "truly sorry" for the " lot of stuff to work on and that has been my focus." Blah blah blah.. More I needed to get myself right.... Then We need to talk about the dog, we both love her so much... I know she didn't need to work on herself and she ran off with someone else. She doens't knowI know and continues to lie to my face. So hopefully this placating me to try and ease my dog away, will help me realize who she really is and not who I though she was.
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