Devestated

[Missymac1980]

Please help me I met a fantastic guy a year ago we hit it off straight away he would text me everyday saying he missed me as we lived about an hour away we spoke in the phone every night and spent weekends and long weekends together. We met each others parents and spoke about the future. Then after about 6 weeks after an amazing week end he left to go home and didn't contact me for 5 days when I asked for an explanation he said that he was a guy who liked to booze and everything else that came with it and that I deserved better. We kept in touch regularly after a few weeks but never saw each other for about 4 months we got back together 4 two weeks and then he dumped me cruelly again. I am going through a tough divorce and have 2 kids do he knew I'd already been through hell and back. Anyway that was September and in October we started seeing each other again after lots of texting back n forth saying we missed each other. We had amazing regular sex, talked about everything that was happening in our lives on 16th feb I text him saying that I wanted more and couldn't do the just sex thing I heard nothing more. Then on 28th feb he text saying he had been working away he was fine and asked how I was I told him I didn't like not hearing from him. I realised I was going to have to move on and went on a date with another guy I met online. I text him telling him I was on a date but that it didn't feel right and that I wanted him so so much. I heard nothing then on 15 th march he text to say that he was also seeing someone and that he hoped I was happy seeing someone. I told him that I couldn't go any further than one date with a guy but told him I was happy for him and that I hoped it worked out. I told him that I would delete his number as I didn't want to cause trouble for him. He wished me luck and to take good care in life and said " nothing in life is to be feared only understood". I was devastated. A week later I text to apologise for my constant texts of telling him I missed him etc and that I wanted him to be happy. I have heard nothing since. I decided to snoop on Facebook( he isn't on it but his nephew is) on it was a post saying he couldn't wait as his lodge had a dance on. I was gutted as I knew he'd be going with his new girlfriend. I then went onto YouTube to his page and found a playlist added 2 weeks ago. It said Yvonne and me relax... All the songs are love songs with lyrics " don't go too fast lets make this last I'm having the time of my life." Songs called all I ever wanted. Reaching out etc. I'm heartbroken for him to have made a playlist dedicated to them it must really be love. He kept telling me his head was a mess he drank too much and couldn't have a relationship but now he's head over heels in love with thus girl Yvonne. I'm devestated. I feel I pushed him away by always telling him how much I missed him and wanted him and I just don't know what to do or how to handle it:(

[wisernow]

He's not into you. You need to stop stalking him and press on with your life.