Lonley2 Posted April 1, 2013 Posted April 1, 2013 (edited) Here goes .. A few weeks ago my friend (who has recently separated from her husband )and I were having a drink at hers when her brother and his mate turned up ! this is the first time both of us have met his mate after a few drinks 1 thing led to another an my friend slept with him ! For the past few weeks he has been down again an they have slept together several times BUT they both have said to me they are not seeing each other or are not ready for a relationship! This guy has been txt'n me asking me to sleep with him and giving me really nice complements , I didn't tell my friend cause I thought it was pointless as they are not in a relationship just like friends with benefits sort of thing , although I refused to take his offer several times ! Last weekend me an my friend went on a night out (to cut the story short ) we went back to hers with beers an this guy was there with her brother we all drank the night away them two went to bed I stayed down stairs and for the first time ever I took cocaine I was extremely drunk that's why I did it anyhow I'm wrecked so I go to bed about 7:30am I get woken up about 9 by my friend an this guy messing about I'm still wrecked but doze of back to sleep then I feel someone trying to kiss me and stupidly enough I kiss him back , then my friend walks in an catches us!! OMG I have ruined everything ...... I'm such a bad person , my friend who is also my best friend of 25 years ! She has told all our other friends and she is trying to turn everyone against me I've also found out she has been slagging me off for weeks! I know what I did was wrong .....but now I've lost everything Edited April 1, 2013 by Lonley2 I've also been told that she's still talking to this guy an she has put all the blame on me an not him
Bryanp Posted April 1, 2013 Posted April 1, 2013 Are you married? What did you expect when you take cocaine?
Author Lonley2 Posted April 1, 2013 Author Posted April 1, 2013 Are you married? What did you expect when you take cocaine? No I'm not married , I'm not justifying anything by saying this .... But this is the first time I have ever taken drugs in my whole life I'm so ashamed of myself I will regret it for the rest of my life ! I'm going through a rough time with my own personal life and I've just made things a whole lot worse ....I don't want to live anymore ...... But I can't leave my children
Author Lonley2 Posted April 1, 2013 Author Posted April 1, 2013 Your right I do have issues to address , too many to count actually , I've recently seperated from my partner of 18 years ( who is the kids dad) the reason being he is a heroin addict has been on it for the last 14 years and I just can't take it anymore so I left for obvious reasons .... Now I'm a hypocritical I know I came here to talk to someone not to be judged I know I'm in the wrong and that I'm a bad person and I can assure you all that no- one hates me as much as I hate myself right now ......and my ex has been in and out of jail for the last 12 years that's were he is atm just incase your wondering
Mycatsnuggles Posted April 1, 2013 Posted April 1, 2013 Lonely, your sign in name says it all. Your grieving and to handle it you using drugs an alcohol to avoid the problems. Normal behavior but not healthy.. Ok? Stop beating yourself up over the past and make plans for your future. Your friend sounds like a bad influence. You need some positive support in your life. You really should go to a AA support group meeting. It may help to find women with similar situations, spouses who used and how to leave them. Think of this as an opportunity to change your life. You were given a wake up call for what you don't want. Now go out and discover what you do!!!!!
Darth Vader Posted April 1, 2013 Posted April 1, 2013 Here goes .. A few weeks ago my friend (who has recently separated from her husband )and I were having a drink at hers when her brother and his mate turned up ! this is the first time both of us have met his mate after a few drinks 1 thing led to another an my friend slept with him ! For the past few weeks he has been down again an they have slept together several times BUT they both have said to me they are not seeing each other or are not ready for a relationship! This guy has been txt'n me asking me to sleep with him and giving me really nice complements , I didn't tell my friend cause I thought it was pointless as they are not in a relationship just like friends with benefits sort of thing , although I refused to take his offer several times ! Last weekend me an my friend went on a night out (to cut the story short ) we went back to hers with beers an this guy was there with her brother we all drank the night away them two went to bed I stayed down stairs and for the first time ever I took cocaine I was extremely drunk that's why I did it anyhow I'm wrecked so I go to bed about 7:30am I get woken up about 9 by my friend an this guy messing about I'm still wrecked but doze of back to sleep then I feel someone trying to kiss me and stupidly enough I kiss him back , then my friend walks in an catches us!! OMG I have ruined everything ...... I'm such a bad person , my friend who is also my best friend of 25 years ! She has told all our other friends and she is trying to turn everyone against me I've also found out she has been slagging me off for weeks! I know what I did was wrong .....but now I've lost everything Have you thought about informing her husband of his wife screwing this OM? They're still married you know, he should know. In the very least you need to tell her she should tell her husband what she's been up to! 1
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