KS11 Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 Was nearly 6 weeks nc. At christmas she gave me a tickets to this theatre show which was on Friday. I had been playing over in my head what i was going to do. I was pretty certain she wasn't going to go. And the idea of me going there and her not being there would have sucked. I ended up standing outside but decided not to go. Later that evening I got a text saying 'I thought you would have come tonight'. We ended speaking on the phone, then yesterday we met up. I don't know why. We spoke about everything, she just said that during the nc, she always just thought, as we had the theatre booked, that she would see me then. So I think it was a shock that I didnt go. All of this is superfluous anyway. She still maintains that there's something holding her back. I just don't know what she was expecting by going to the show. That i'd turn up, be totally over her, and we could be friends again?! I thought i'd hit rock bottom last time. But regardless of what I told myself, I too, had Friday in the back of my head. Now, there's nothing left. I just miss her so much, it feels like its never going away.
TaraMaiden Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 Huge Mistake - again, huh? Look, try not to make it a third time, okay? It's never going to go away until you break up with her and Go No Contact. See... yesterday was just the end. it's not been 6 weeks. They're in the bin. It's been one day. Square-one-day. Lordy, I get slammed so often. I get accused of being too harsh, hard-line, No Contact-obsessive. But see... that's cos I'm right. And so many people prove that. I despair.
Am4Real Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 I'm not arguing with you my dear, I think you're right on this morning! Frankly, if I know I am not truly over someone and I mean 100% sure, I would not put myself in any situation that could jeopardize my emotional stability. Period! Keep harping Tara... Huge Mistake - again, huh? Look, try not to make it a third time, okay? It's never going to go away until you break up with her and Go No Contact. See... yesterday was just the end. it's not been 6 weeks. They're in the bin. It's been one day. Square-one-day. Lordy, I get slammed so often. I get accused of being too harsh, hard-line, No Contact-obsessive. But see... that's cos I'm right. And so many people prove that. I despair.
CompleteFailure Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 You feel like crap now, but remember however hard it was to go NC before, you did it, cause you are capable. You were better than that and still are.
TaylorBe Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 Huge Mistake - again, huh? Look, try not to make it a third time, okay? It's never going to go away until you break up with her and Go No Contact. See... yesterday was just the end. it's not been 6 weeks. They're in the bin. It's been one day. Square-one-day. Lordy, I get slammed so often. I get accused of being too harsh, hard-line, No Contact-obsessive. But see... that's cos I'm right. And so many people prove that. I despair. Just curious...Whats your relationship status?
TaraMaiden Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 Married, for the third time!!! Married - for the third time... Married for the third time.
mtnbiker3000 Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 TM - I have been following your posts, and I do totally agree... NC is the only way to really move on. It's hard. It sucks. One's mind will play many tricks. But it is the only way to go. Me: 2 months LC and 2 weeks NC. Hoping, I will start to feel a little better soon Happy Easter Oh, by the way, can you recommend any Eastern Philosophy books I may read. Something for beginners. I don't want to try and tackle too much at this point. But I have always wanted to learn more about it...
TaraMaiden Posted March 31, 2013 Posted March 31, 2013 I can't PM you, nor do I want to take this thread off-topic - so join me here, and I'll go into it a little further with you, with pleasure....
Author KS11 Posted April 1, 2013 Author Posted April 1, 2013 You feel like crap now, but remember however hard it was to go NC before, you did it, cause you are capable. You were better than that and still are. I don't think I am. The whole 6 weeks I just felt like I was lying to myself that it was helping. And now that we've been back in contact it feels like we have to break up all over again and I just can't face doing it.
CompleteFailure Posted April 8, 2013 Posted April 8, 2013 I don't think I am. The whole 6 weeks I just felt like I was lying to myself that it was helping. And now that we've been back in contact it feels like we have to break up all over again and I just can't face doing it. I hear ya. I didn't manage to last very long NC. I seem to be in the same boat as you, finding it hard to start the NC again. Have you started NC again? How are you dealing with it?
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