This pain becomes a drug

[Echo000]

You get used to it. It becomes part of your story. Feeling okay..thinking about different things..becomes a strange feeling. Normalcy becomes odd. That is the effect of this pain over so much time. When you feel a little better..you also feel a little weird. Off

[mtnbiker3000]

A little convoluted, but I get what your saying!!! Also make you know your alive. I guess that's something

[crimsoncurrent]

I would also say my experience differs from yours in a sense that, instead of feeling alienated from normality, this pain has added another layer of meaning to a life, a deeper one.

[Echo000]

yea I can relate to that too..very positive approach

[siankat]

yip it is weird

 

Also...as someone who is used to living life a little off kilter anyway, it is really really interesting what someone wrote about getting someone out your system is very similar to detoxing from an addiction. I never realised that when the love went, my feelings turned to obsession/addiction. An ex once wrote to me and said, 'you chase the highs and survive the lows looking for the next high. Quit chasing it. Stay off this drug. Enjoy your life' That was 2 years ago and invaluable advice for someone living obliviously to my tendencies as i was.

[CompleteFailure]

Yea it's crazy at times. We know what we should be doing to get better but we just keep putting ourselves into situations where we can remember the hurt.

 

It's almost as if(although this feeling is complete dread) we've never felt something that strong and deep to the core before and though it's on the opposite side of the spectrum of emotions we would like to feel, we still crave that feeling of 'something'.

[New2Love4Now]

So true. I can barely remember what it feels like to be truly happy and content but sometimes I forget about her for long enough and the feeling comes back to me for a moment like a huge weight has been lifted. Unfortunately it doesn't last for long...