It's been almost a year, and I still can't figure her out!!!!!!

[Nintendo125]

It's been almost a year, when my ex girlfriend dumped me. Things ended up badly between us, all we do is fight and she would always run away from the problem, instead of fixing it. I admit that we both made mistakes but mostly her. Her personality had change, and thats when everything went down hill. She would emotionally and verbally abuse me and spend more time with another guy. Which caused issues between us. Sooner or later she dumped and went of her way saying she loves but doesnt want to be with me.So far she had contacted me 4 times during that break up time. The first time she wanted to work things slowly and believed we can work things out. Later I was hanging out with one of her friends and she also one of my friends as well. My ex would often get jealous of her when its just the 2 of us. Our friend was already in a relationship. I still loved my ex and my our friend would give me advice and help me to get her back. My ex started to think that I was doing something with her and jumped to conculsions and then told me that we are never ever getting back together. I tried talking to her saying that she misunderstanding the situation but she refused to listen to me and left out of my life. The second time she called me after 3 Months had passed. She wanted to say hi to me and see how I was doing and had an hour and half conversation with her. 3 days after that we bumped into each at our campus. She wanted to talk to me and asked if we could be friends, I told yes at first but I was fool then later on told her it wouldn't work at all. I told her its best to go our sperate ways. 2 months had passed after that. She soon started to show herself in front of me and I started to get upset and I still had feelings for her. I basically ignored her and she would try hard to get my attention and I just walked away from her. She soon got her friends to talk to me and used that window to come talk to me. I didn't want to talk to her but when we did we sorta argued and she would tell me that's she is sorry that she treated me badly but she doesn't feel the same way about me anymore. Then told me my problem is that I was being insecure and crying to much which she couldn't handle anymore and wanted to try to have a friendship. I told her no and it can't work out. Then she said she knows she will never find another person who would love her the way i did and that i was one of the best and greatest boyfriends she ever had. Then she kissed me on the cheek and hugged me and left. Then the next time she contacted me she started to text me a month later after that. She told me that she's been thinking about me. I ignored her texts and then an hour later she showed to my job. We talked and I soon met her mother which she heard stories about me but for some reason my ex never told her we broke up. We soon started to spend time with one another hanging out talk more and so on. She would try to kiss me a few times but hesitated. She would tell me she still has feelings for me and then asked me a random question. She asked me if we can have sex, I told her no and that its not right and needs to be base on a pure relationship we once had. Then she looked at me, and then told me she was only kidding. I knew deep down she wasn't and told she shouldn't take that lightly and she noded her head. We still spend time together and talk. Then she started to ignore me. We soon started arguing about that matter and told its better not to talk after all. Then a day of silence took place. Out of the blue she called me late at night telling me she just got out of the ER and wanted to talk to me. So I did, we chat all night and she told me that she couldn't move much because of accident and that she needs to stay home for a week. I would check up on her the first 3 days, then she ignored me again. I'm like oh ok... I soon texted her back saying sorry if I had said something wrong and she texted me back with "?" And I told her why I said that but no response. I left it at that. On the 6th day of her recovery I ran into her in a party and was just shock to see her there. She did seem Abit injured but the fact of seeing her at the party just makes me upset after being ignored and she still needs to stay home to recover as well. We looked at each and then I just walked pass her without saying a word. Then as I was about to leave, she was also leaving then said hi to me with an hostile tone. I soon told her, that it seem I exist now and why are you toying with me. She told me what was wrong with me and i told her nothing is wrong with me and i asked her why is she acting like that. She told me that she doesn't like my attitude and I should've said hi to her. I told her no, since there's no reason for me too after you ignored me. She told me stop acting like a 12 year girl and that there just texts. I soon asked her what was the point of you calling me and telling me to spend time together and still have feelings for me. Her response was idk. And that we are never ever getting back together Then she told me she will talk to me later and I told her no, and its better for her to stay out of my life and don't ever contact me again. Later that night she posted a lot of crap about me on twitter and this wasn't the first time either. I had never done such a thing. After that I left it alone. Almost 4 months had passed, and last month I found put she started to work out in the gym I workout now, after she has her own gym in her building and she knows i workout there. I was quite upset but whatever. Then just 2 weeks later she texts me out of the blue but it was very random, we talked about 3 days straight but I would reply with a large delay and she would text me right away. Then all of sudden she just stopped. And ever since that, I can't stop thinking about her. I still have feelings for her but I keep asking myself why is she contacting me again? What's her motive? Any ideas? I would contact her but I'm afraid doing so. I dont want to give her any ideas of me chasing her. And I don't know what to do. I wouldn't mind working things out but what do you guys think?

[cavalier99]

Hmmm. This is the reason people advocate complete NC. lol

 

Sorry bro. You will never figure it out. I certainly cant.

 

Time to dissapear like a ninja! Cav