LMNO Posted March 26, 2013 Posted March 26, 2013 Throughout my last few months in Afghanistan, I have found myself turning towards my god. For what I'm not sure. I pray a hundred times a day that he will help rid me of this pain. That he will bring the love of my life back to me, and make our family whole again. That he will finally make me see, even though I feel it in the black depths of my shattered heart, that she never did love me. Why do you care so much about a woman that has never truly cared about you. She left you for another man, while you are here, risking your life for her and your son. I tell myself this on a daily basis, and as much as I know I should say F her, I can't. I stare at these stars for hours on end, with a feeling of hurt so deep I find it hard to live with myself. Easter is a few days away. She'll be taking my son to her family's house with her new boyfriend, who is eagerly chomping at the bit to replace me in my sons life. And here I am, dodging bullets, IEDs and rockets- sometimes wishing they would end this pain. Why can't you hear me god. What did I do to deserve this. Why won't you make it stop ?
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