kswann42 Posted September 11, 2004 Posted September 11, 2004 Hey i need some help really bad, ok about a month ago i went to see a few of my cousins in holt. 2 boys (11 years old) and a girl (14). the girl (kandace) invited one of her friends over to spend the night with her. her name is chelsea (also 14). i stayed 3 nights with my cousins from friday to monday morning. it all starts saturday morning. this is a little personal so just hang in there and dont be afraid. i was the kind of person that thought about commiting suicide sometimes. when i met her i felt different. i wanted to change. she was the inspiration i had been looking for for a long time. . i really do still love her. but now im not sure what to do and i dont have anyone to turn to. i dont like the person i am and i havent for a long time. i just thought that i could change now im not sure about that anymore. i dont want to go back to who i was but now i dont feel the same. its like she was an angel sent to me to show me the right way to go. but without her im lost and confused again. i felt like a real person when i was in her prescence. i wanted to be there for her but now ill never have that chance. i thought she was different. i really did. i dont know who i am anymore. when i told her what i thought about her i really meant it. i dont know where i went wrong. i just cant stop thinking about her and that one night at kandace's. it just plays over and over in my head. no matter what i think about or if im with my friends it just wont stop. i ordered a necklace for her for christmas the other day. i dont know why. i just wanted to prove to her that she really meant the world to me. when i held her hand last weekend i thought it was the best thing in the world. she showed me who i want to be. i really appreciate that. and ill never forget her no matter where i am or what im doing even though ill probably never see her again in my life. i told her thanks for being there those very few weeks. thats all it took to show me where i want to be. i really am going to miss her very much and will probably be depressed for a long time but i just wanted to say thanks. and tell her one last time i love you. we live about an hour apart and i met her that one saturday and i thought she was amazing. i called her last night to see if she was avoiding me because she hadnt talked to me for a while and she told me it was over. i really dont want to go back to the person i was but i dont know what to do anymore. i really love her and i need to know what i should do to get her back. Thanks for your time. kswann42
Author kswann42 Posted September 11, 2004 Author Posted September 11, 2004 by the way people if this makes any difference at all im 13 and not some child molester or anything. Or if it makes any difference with your reply.
Author kswann42 Posted January 8, 2005 Author Posted January 8, 2005 this probably will break the language filter but i dont give a s.h.i.t. yall are some damn f.u.c.k.ing idiots that wont do s.h.i.t. for anyone so f.u.c.k. all of you every last one of you f.u.c.k you to mods. i wont be back so dont worry about banning me f.u.c.k.ers.
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