LMNO Posted March 24, 2013 Posted March 24, 2013 Yesterday I did some research, and finally put a term to the PD that my ex has which is narcissism. Made me feel somewhat better to finally fully realize that I was in an abusive relationship, with a fairly horrible human being even though I knew it all along. My emotions yesterday were surprisingly under control, and I felt really good all day. Seemed as if it may have been somewhat of a turning point for myself and the healing process. Then I woke up today, and I seem to be right back to where I was the day before yesterday. Depressed, lonely, somewhat angry and confused. When does it end? 1
cavalier99 Posted March 24, 2013 Posted March 24, 2013 Yesterday I did some research, and finally put a term to the PD that my ex has which is narcissism. Made me feel somewhat better to finally fully realize that I was in an abusive relationship, with a fairly horrible human being even though I knew it all along. My emotions yesterday were surprisingly under control, and I felt really good all day. Seemed as if it may have been somewhat of a turning point for myself and the healing process. Then I woke up today, and I seem to be right back to where I was the day before yesterday. Depressed, lonely, somewhat angry and confused. When does it end? Not soon enough! Lol Just keep on going and stay NC. That is the only advise i can really give. I does get a LOT better. Im almost 6 months NC and never thought id get here with having a mental break down the 1st month. Im pretty good now. Be pacient with yourself. It sucks but you wont die. Cav 1
J_L_C Posted March 24, 2013 Posted March 24, 2013 Yesterday I did some research, and finally put a term to the PD that my ex has which is narcissism. Made me feel somewhat better to finally fully realize that I was in an abusive relationship, with a fairly horrible human being even though I knew it all along. My emotions yesterday were surprisingly under control, and I felt really good all day. Seemed as if it may have been somewhat of a turning point for myself and the healing process. Then I woke up today, and I seem to be right back to where I was the day before yesterday. Depressed, lonely, somewhat angry and confused. When does it end? What were some of the characteristics you noticed? I think my ex was a narcissist as well...
Compromize Posted March 24, 2013 Posted March 24, 2013 I feel your pain. I was great on Thursday, not so good yesterday and blah today. I try to tell myself all the things I didn't like, all the reasons it wouldn't work etc. But the really shi**y thing is it would have worked great because I love/loved her to death and we just click together. But here I am alone and without her so I guess I was just kidding myself all along. The one thing that sticks in my mind is very early on in our relationship when we broke up, no correction she broke up with me (one of the many times) she told me that I picked the wrong girl. I guess I can't be mad at her, she tried to tell me that I would end up here anyway. I, like you, go through the whole range of emotions, both positive and negative and when I think I have made some progress, BAM! There I am back to thinking of her for hours. I read somewhere that for every month you are together, it takes a month of healing to get over them if you didn't want the relationship to end. God I hope not
Author LMNO Posted March 24, 2013 Author Posted March 24, 2013 What were some of the characteristics you noticed? I think my ex was a narcissist as well... Oh man, where do I even begin? She had to be the most self centered, selfish person I have ever met. Lied like no other, even when she was caught red handed in something, evidence in her face- she couldn't fess up to anything. Consistently berated me with insults. Could never accept responsibility for anything she did in the relationship. Everything was always me. Constantly toyed with me and my emotions. Broke up with me a good 20 times in 10 years. It was like a sick and twisted game to her. She loved being chased to stroke her own ego. Oh-and yeah- I was 19, she was 26 when we got together. Consistent manipulation, vindictiveness and emotional abuse This is just the tip of the iceberg. And still, I love this woman more than anything, and cant understand why. WTF is wrong with me? At times, I think it is just because we have a child together, and I want more than anything for him to not be from a broken home, but then deep down I know it is really because I love her.
Am4Real Posted March 24, 2013 Posted March 24, 2013 Sounds like an immature idiot. Thank yourself everyday she is gone. Heal, heal, heal, and you'll be so ready to make a normal person happy! Oh man, where do I even begin? She had to be the most self centered, selfish person I have ever met. Lied like no other, even when she was caught red handed in something, evidence in her face- she couldn't fess up to anything. Consistently berated me with insults. Could never accept responsibility for anything she did in the relationship. Everything was always me. Constantly toyed with me and my emotions. Broke up with me a good 20 times in 10 years. It was like a sick and twisted game to her. She loved being chased to stroke her own ego. Oh-and yeah- I was 19, she was 26 when we got together. Consistent manipulation, vindictiveness and emotional abuse This is just the tip of the iceberg. And still, I love this woman more than anything, and cant understand why. WTF is wrong with me? At times, I think it is just because we have a child together, and I want more than anything for him to not be from a broken home, but then deep down I know it is really because I love her.
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