BrokenHeartedSavior Posted March 23, 2013 Posted March 23, 2013 I'm incredibly grateful to EVERYONE on LS. But I'm pretty tanked and all i can think of is her laying down with another guy- right now as i write this. We are nine months post breakup, and three months NC? I'm so F'ing depressd. I know she has another guy taking care of her needs, i'm just so sad. Getting myself plastered- friday nite. I miss her. PLEASE don't judge me, i just cant take the loneliness without her tonight. I realize its now spring, and I havent done a damn thing to improve myself. Last i spoke to her she was training for marathons. Me? Drinking and zero workimg out. Nine months. Seems she's doing just fine. Hasn't thought of me. Yes I know i'm pathetic tonight- this morning. Sorry people I just can't help it being sad that I'm forgotten. Yup, when I awake it'll be a new day, but right now it's almost 4am, New Jersey time. And all I can think about is her being with someone else at this hour- and all of last night. Sorry LS, I just can't take it. Even close to a year later...
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted March 23, 2013 Author Posted March 23, 2013 I mean texting- emailing her. I want to SO badly, but know i should not. Don't wanna wake uo her new bf. V O M I T !!!!!!!!!
cdt76 Posted March 23, 2013 Posted March 23, 2013 Last night was tough for me too brother. I went out with some co-workers and one of them used to be a party animal and now he has a new baby. His wife was blowing up his phone to come home and he was getting pissed. A female co-worker convinced him going home was the best idea so he did. I texted him telling him that going home to those two women is the most important thing he can do in life and that he should enjoy it. Those of us who have lost everything, don't see my kids but one weekend a month, no real close friends, no love life to speak of, are jealous he has that. Losing my kids and family has emptied my soul and yes, I cried too last night. It's ok to cry and it's ok to miss people who where in your life. We just have to go to sleep and wake up the next day and find meaning in what we do today. I hope you wake up today and feel better. I know the weather sucks where I am but at least I'm breathing!
RiceaRoni Posted March 23, 2013 Posted March 23, 2013 I'm sorry this is happening to you.. However drinking doesn't solve anything..you only drown further in your sorrows..because alcohol is a depressant and wont make you any happier.. Working out will though It brings endorphins...going for a sprint or long run will help you think and clear your mind.. Do something, anything that can and will bring you progress Do something you've always wanted to try, but never had the time to do it. Like paintball? or painting? or even taking a dance class.. Lots of people are going through the same emotions as you are, but we can't wallow in our pain and self pity forever... Unfortunately there's nothing we can do about out situations...our exes are with someone else, and we should respect their decision. To truly love someone you must let them have their happiness, even if it means not being with you.
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted March 23, 2013 Author Posted March 23, 2013 Thank you all. I cried my eyes out, but stayed NC! It was hard as hell. But today is a new day- and i stayed strong with the help of you great people here on LS. It's difficult- absolute hell to think of her with someone else, but its a fact. You'd think after all this time it would sink in to my brain that she's LONG gone. But thank you my friends here at LS for helping me stay strong! My hope is to eventually dispense some wisdom to someone else who needs it. 2
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