amythan Posted March 22, 2013 Posted March 22, 2013 Hi, I have been thinking a lot about my dating life and why it looks like a massive failure and I feel a bit hopeless. Probably it is my fault, my choices are bad but I cannot help who I like. On the paper I shouldn't have any problem finding someone but in practice ... oh well, struggling is an understatement. I know I have qualities and consistently good, compatible and interested people show interest in dating me seriously .. but unfortunately, I am not attracted to them. I do not have any interest in getting married or kids and probably my lifestyle is not very usual, I know. My romantic life revolves around three guys: - My ex-bf: we lived together for nine years. He is the most important person in my life, my best friend and my family. We talk every day, we visit each other and we travel together. Not everyone would accept this situation but we are no longer in love and I cannot (don't want) to remove him from my life. He is the most interesting, intelligent and special person I ever met. - My FWB: we started two years ago and i was madly in love with him, he was not. These feelings faded and now we are just very good friends who sleep together. Not more. But I know this friendship will finish if I find someone. - My crush: he has a gf (great, hein?) and he was interested .. or this is what I thought. We have met five months ago and we do not even live close to each other and he is much younger than me. We kissed once but he thought about this and wants to fix things with his gf. He likes me but I think he friendzoned me. We speak all day long every day though so i am a bit confused. i know this has to stop, for my own sake, to stop reading into every compliment or cute thing he says, and they are a lot .. I do not see this going anywhere. I feel lost and I blame my bad luck .. I really like this guy but I feel hopeless and rejected and I find myself behaving as a teenager and wasting my time around someone who seems as confused as I am He is not really helping as he drunk texts me and keeps saying I make him smile ... Thanks for reading and commenting and any thought / idea is really welcome !
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