Pent Up Anger Holding Me Back?

[StraylightRun24]

As some of you on here already know I'm having a real hard time struggling to get over a relationship that only lasted a little under 4 months. It's really starting to wear on me and make me feel extremely low and pathetic.

 

Now I've maintained NC since 2 days after the BU, which was 3 days after Christmas. Yes, I have caved and looked at her FB on occasion, the most recent being this past Sunday, and have also looked at pictures of us sometimes, but other then that I haven't spoken to her since the day before NYE. I've started to run on a regular basis (3 to 5 times a week), which was something I did before I fell into the routine of being with her, started going on hikes every other Saturday with some buds, have been convinced to do a Tough Mudder with said buds in the next couple of months, and regularly try to get out and hang out with my oldest friends and new friends I've made since the BU. I've even cut back on how many days a week I drink, which is something I'd been trying to do before the relationship and for whatever reason could never break the habit. I've only admitted this to one other person but I would drink 7 days a week for the past few years because I really was extremely unhappy/lonely. Since the BU though I've cut down to 3 times a week and really only when I go out. So this is HUGE progress for me! I know that, but for whatever reason I'm still hear pining over a girl that basically said she wasn't falling in love with me.

 

For whatever reason today at work I am once again obsessing about her so I decide to take a few minutes and write something to her (which I obviously would never send) and the next thing I know, venom is spilling out across the paper in ink. I'm wishing her nothing but failure and misery in life. I'm writing how I know she's going to end up alone in life with a dozen cats to keep her company. How do I know this? Her expectation of what love is doesn't exist. I tell her to go eff herself for telling me while breaking up with me that she has only been in love once and the guy just said he was in love with her while not really meaning it leaving her crushed and while she knows I haven't said I love you, I'm feeling it and for reasons unknown to her she just doesn't feel the same way about me as she did for the I love you liar.

 

It really came as somewhat of a shock to me that apparently I've been suppressing a lot of this anger. For the past 2 months or so whenever I got a pissed or angry thought about her I'd push it aside and tell myself that she can't help how she feels and didn't mean to hurt me (which I know is true), but you know what.....she still did!

 

I obviously would never say any of these things to her face and I know deep down I don't mean any of it. In fact I'm going to rip up the note right after I'm done typing this. It's just that I'm hurt and anger is a natural side effect of that. I really believe I've been letting it fester inside these past few months and that's not healthy or helping me move forward.

[IS IT Better late]

Straylight

I just went back to follow your posts. Damn you sound very similar to me. My relationship was about 5-months. Great for almost 4, and then she pulls the rug out from underneath me. We hung out a few times in the last few weeks even on V-day but that was it.

 

Always had fun together, never seemed like any issues, but she would go cold on me a few days after we hung out. Unless she was a damn good actor she seemed to be enjoying my company as much as I enjoyed hers. Always sent me texts after our dates about having a great time blah blah.

 

Anwway I've been left a mess over this and I'm sooo angry, depressed and just can't get myself together. I wake up every morning mad at the world!

 

Any advice on how to cope?

[StraylightRun24]

When I figure one out you'll be the first person I let know!

 

In all seriousness though I think you just have to go through the emotions. When you're sad just accept it and let yourself be sad for a little while, but then you have to pick yourself up and do something that will cheer you up, such as hanging out with friends or watching a funny movie. If you're angry let yourself be angry, but in a safe/positive environment. By that I mean either come here and vent (as you can see that this thread was ), if you have a really good friend that you can trust vent to them, or just write something out for your eyes only and then destroy it.

 

I know it's hard but if I was in your shoes I would try my very hardest to go complete NC with her. You contacting and seeing her on occasion isn't going to do you any good besides prolong your agony. I know it's hard to cut someone out of your life who became so important in such a short time, but for your own sanity I would advise it. I had the unfortunate experience of working with the girl I was involved with before the ex I talk about here on LS and it drug out for an additional 7 months! It was horrible and it turns out I actually wasn't even in love with her! I couldn't imagine if it was the real deal....

[Seachelle1]

Oh StraylightRun,

 

You are not alone! The brightly burning, short-lived relationships seem to hurt the most, don't they? The unsent letters I write are half venom, half caring.

 

I get it.

 

I wonder if my ex feels the same way? I was told by mutual friends that he was pretty undone and crying a lot after our breakup and after we went no contact. I don't know how knowing that helps me except to let me know that maybe I wasn't so terrible? I'm remembered and I didn't give my heart in vain?

 

Awww. We'll both get over it. I'm so angry at my ex. I think it's part of the grieving process.

[Seachelle1]

When I figure one out you'll be the first person I let know!

 

In all seriousness though I think you just have to go through the emotions. When you're sad just accept it and let yourself be sad for a little while, but then you have to pick yourself up and do something that will cheer you up, such as hanging out with friends or watching a funny movie. If you're angry let yourself be angry, but in a safe/positive environment. By that I mean either come here and vent (as you can see that this thread was ), if you have a really good friend that you can trust vent to them, or just write something out for your eyes only and then destroy it.

 

I know it's hard but if I was in your shoes I would try my very hardest to go complete NC with her. You contacting and seeing her on occasion isn't going to do you any good besides prolong your agony. I know it's hard to cut someone out of your life who became so important in such a short time, but for your own sanity I would advise it. I had the unfortunate experience of working with the girl I was involved with before the ex I talk about here on LS and it drug out for an additional 7 months! It was horrible and it turns out I actually wasn't even in love with her! I couldn't imagine if it was the real deal....

 

You're exactly right! I know the most helpful thing for me in grieving my dad's death has been giving myself 30 minutes a day in front of his picture, talking to him. I can't let myself dwell on it beyond that or I'll stop to obsess about what is lost. While I am talking to him I let myself feel anger and pain and loss. I am in the moment. After, I have to concentrate on each moment and moving forward.

 

I don't think most relationships ending are as horrible as losing a parent but there are definite similarities.

[StraylightRun24]

Oh StraylightRun,

 

You are not alone! The brightly burning, short-lived relationships seem to hurt the most, don't they? The unsent letters I write are half venom, half caring.

 

I get it.

 

I wonder if my ex feels the same way? I was told by mutual friends that he was pretty undone and crying a lot after our breakup and after we went no contact. I don't know how knowing that helps me except to let me know that maybe I wasn't so terrible? I'm remembered and I didn't give my heart in vain?

 

Awww. We'll both get over it. I'm so angry at my ex. I think it's part of the grieving process.

 

It really seems to be that way Seachelle. I mean I feel somewhat ridiculous being on here boo-hooing about a 4 month relationship, especially after reading some of the other poster's serious LTRs and the lying/cheating that some of them have experienced, but I don't tend to give my heart away that easily. I can honestly say this is the first girl I can say I actually fell in love with. Yes I thought I had been in love at least once before hand but now experiencing this heartache I know I wasn't.

 

Too be complete honest I don't even think I'm even angry at her. I would agree with you that anger is definitely part of the grieving process, but I think I'm actually more angry at myself. Like I said above I don't give my heart away easily and I waited until I was 28 years old to actually do it and apparently I was wrong. I just feel like everything I believed in beforehand was one big effin' lie because I had thought all the waiting and previous failed attempts at relationships was all worth it because it had lead me to her. Then when everything seems to be going awesome she breaks up with me out of left field....

[StraylightRun24]

You're exactly right! I know the most helpful thing for me in grieving my dad's death has been giving myself 30 minutes a day in front of his picture, talking to him. I can't let myself dwell on it beyond that or I'll stop to obsess about what is lost. While I am talking to him I let myself feel anger and pain and loss. I am in the moment. After, I have to concentrate on each moment and moving forward.

 

I don't think most relationships ending are as horrible as losing a parent but there are definite similarities.

 

I'm sorry to hear about your father's passing. I am fortunate enough not to know what it's like to lose a parent.

 

I've read about a lot the similarities of grieving the death of a family member or friend and the ending of a relationship. I think your philosophy of taking a little time of each day to let yourself grieve for your father and then concentrating on the rest of the day and attempting to move forward with it is a great approach!

[Seachelle1]

You know, Straylight, I've heard of people using funeral rituals to release some deep emotion about lost relationships. I utilized a few of those rituals myself in getting over my ex.

 

I dated this guy for only 3 months but I became very attached to him. Maybe it was because of the time he came into my life. I've been married. I've dated men for 6 years. Yet this is one of the more painful breakups I've experienced. I feel I'm close to the finish line here with it, though. So I'll cheer you on from where I'm at. It really does get better.

[StraylightRun24]

You know, Straylight, I've heard of people using funeral rituals to release some deep emotion about lost relationships. I utilized a few of those rituals myself in getting over my ex.

 

I dated this guy for only 3 months but I became very attached to him. Maybe it was because of the time he came into my life. I've been married. I've dated men for 6 years. Yet this is one of the more painful breakups I've experienced. I feel I'm close to the finish line here with it, though. So I'll cheer you on from where I'm at. It really does get better.

 

Thanks for the words of encouragement Seachelle. I'm glad to hear you are close to the finish line yourself. It must be a great relief knowing that your nightmare is almost over.

 

I know it gets better. I would be lying to myself if I didn't say I'm better today than I was a couple of months ago. It's just crazy to think you can go through so many emotions in such a short period of time (numbness, to shock, to sadness, to feeling okay, to anger, back to sadness and so on)

 

Sadly I think we all have the answers within as to why we feel like this after a BU and what we exactly have to do to really move on but we all hold on to hope that they're going to come back, especially if there was no lying/cheating going on. I personally believe the out of the blue BU mixed with this being the first time I fell in love with someone on so many levels (intellectually, emotionally, physically) then throwing in the first time actually following through with NC makes it hard as hell.

 

At this point I'm really just holding myself back and I know that. Maybe I'll try some of those funeral rituals...at this point I'd try anything to have a couple days in a row of feeling just okay.

[IS IT Better late]

Hey Stray,

It's so scary how your feelings are so similar to mine. I've been in LTR's before and of course it was very sad when those ended but nothing has compared to this. Nobody understands why I'm so messed up over a 5-month relationship.

 

But here's why and you sound just like me. I was falling in love with her, our time to getting was amazing. So much fun, we got along great, I felt like I was on cloud 9. We had chemistry on so many levels and I waited along time to feel this way. Too watch this implode infront of me without understanding why and unable to figure out how to stop it was horrible. I lost 15 pounds, had trouble sleeping, doing my job and concentrating on anything.

 

B/c this was a young relationship I was feeling literally high and then to fall so sudden has caused me unbelivevable pain. Our memories together haunt me. The LTR's IMO descend slowly with a lot of fighting and relationship issues so it's usually not such a shock . But both me and you were pushed off the cliff without any warning.

 

Damn this sucks!

[StraylightRun24]

Hey Stray,

It's so scary how your feelings are so similar to mine. I've been in LTR's before and of course it was very sad when those ended but nothing has compared to this. Nobody understands why I'm so messed up over a 5-month relationship.

 

But here's why and you sound just like me. I was falling in love with her, our time to getting was amazing. So much fun, we got along great, I felt like I was on cloud 9. We had chemistry on so many levels and I waited along time to feel this way. Too watch this implode infront of me without understanding why and unable to figure out how to stop it was horrible. I lost 15 pounds, had trouble sleeping, doing my job and concentrating on anything.

 

B/c this was a young relationship I was feeling literally high and then to fall so sudden has caused me unbelivevable pain. Our memories together haunt me. The LTR's IMO descend slowly with a lot of fighting and relationship issues so it's usually not such a shock . But both me and you were pushed off the cliff without any warning.

 

Damn this sucks!

 

I believe you just nailed it right there IS IT Better late. We were both in the stage of the honeymoon phase where we both had moved past the nervousness of, "I hope she likes me as much as I like her." Does that make any sense? lol

 

By that I mean I was in the stage of the honeymoon phase where I had actually accepted that this was the beginning of something that was serious and all the hopes and dreams of the future with this special girl were going wild in my head. (I personally call this the fist pump towards the heavens moment lol)

 

The lead up weeks to Christmas and doing all the things serious couples do completely destroyed any fear that I might be a little more into her than she was into me and I have to say waking up next to her Christmas morning was the best gift I could have ever received. Like you stated above I was on cloud 9. She was the closest thing to a perfect package I had ever been involved with (don't grill me too hard....I know there is no such thing as a true perfect package. I'm not that delusional!)

 

It's just crazy to think 3 days later it was all over and pretty much for the last 4 months I've been in the depths of despair....

[IS IT Better late]

Stray,

Your Christmas AM was Valentines Day for me. Although she had begun drifting from me a few weeks earlier she wasn't lost yet and we went on to have a great V-day together. I dropped her off at her home the next AM and that was the last time I've seen her. I didn't realize at the time it would be, I prob wouldn't let her go lol!

 

She texted me that AM about how she had such a great time and thanked me profusely! She then proceeds to go cold on me and a week later our last phone convo she tells me she wants out?? How does that happen?

 

But I know exactly how you feel. I had visions of a LTR with her, we were both very comfortable around each other and everything seemed great together we never even had a fight. If she wasn't feeling it inside she sure did a great job of hiding it from me. She was all smiles and laughing.

 

And I'm sure your chick was great as this girl was. She was so nice and helpful in the beginning. I still have old emails from her that I should prob delete and her tone was perfect she wanted to be with me. It kills me to read them now.

 

It's about 3-months of despair for me. I feel pretty good today though. But it comes in goes in waves. Always rough in the AM. And having dreams of her doesn't help!

 

It also sucks that I still think about where she is, what she's doing, who's she with all the time. And wonder if she might be thinking about me? Do you do this?

[StraylightRun24]

Stray,

Your Christmas AM was Valentines Day for me. Although she had begun drifting from me a few weeks earlier she wasn't lost yet and we went on to have a great V-day together. I dropped her off at her home the next AM and that was the last time I've seen her. I didn't realize at the time it would be, I prob wouldn't let her go lol!

 

She texted me that AM about how she had such a great time and thanked me profusely! She then proceeds to go cold on me and a week later our last phone convo she tells me she wants out?? How does that happen?

But I know exactly how you feel. I had visions of a LTR with her, we were both very comfortable around each other and everything seemed great together we never even had a fight. If she wasn't feeling it inside she sure did a great job of hiding it from me. She was all smiles and laughing.

 

And I'm sure your chick was great as this girl was. She was so nice and helpful in the beginning. I still have old emails from her that I should prob delete and her tone was perfect she wanted to be with me. It kills me to read them now.

 

It's about 3-months of despair for me. I feel pretty good today though. But it comes in goes in waves. Always rough in the AM. And having dreams of her doesn't help!

 

It also sucks that I still think about where she is, what she's doing, who's she with all the time. And wonder if she might be thinking about me? Do you do this?

 

I wish I could tell you how at one point someone can seem they are completely content and then the next they are BU. I just assume they have felt a certain way for a while and are really good at pretending (acting as you've said) that all is fine and dandy.

 

Just my personal opinion but I would delete those e-mails. At this point they are just hampering your recovery. It took me a long time to delete my text messages from my ex but I finally did and it's helped a little bit. Go ahead and read them one last time and get all your emotions out....then press delete. Hard as hell but I think you would benefit from it. I really need to listen to my own advice here. Even though I've deleted all her texts I still have a ton of pictures of her on my phone and for the past 4 months they have tempted me (and succeeded I might add) to look at. Ugh....

 

Yea the AMs are still rough for me. I've got to say that a lot of AMs she's not the first thing that I think of when I open my eyes, but she always manages to sneak in there. Ironically I had a dream about her last night. In it I ran into one of her friends and she told me, "her and Ben (who the eff is Ben!?!?!) are great together." LMFAO....Needless to say I woke up feeling like utter crap, BUT thought to myself, "This is why I'm doing NC. If I felt like that after waking up to a dream of her dating some imaginary guy named Ben, how am I going to feel when I find out she's dating real life Benjamin?!"

 

I think of all of those same things. The worst is if she actually thinks of me though.....

[IS IT Better late]

It's mind boggling? I don't know what people around you told you when you try to explain your situation to them but all my friends told me it has to be another new guy or an ex boyfriend who entered back into the picture. Their rationale was why would she go from having something with me and she enjoys having sex to nothing? Even if she wasn't in love with me why would she choose nothing over me? Kind of makes sense to me but I have no proof?

 

You right about the old emails and I have a few photos of her on my phone too. Matter of fact this crazy girl texted me new photos of her just about 3-weeks ago. I haven't seen her since Feb and she's texting me photos in Mid April. Talk about a tease! I don't understand her motives sometimes.

 

Yeah something about the AM's a really hard for me. It's like everytime I go to sleep I'm hoping I'm going to wake up and things will fix themselves and go back to the way it was. But then I realize she's gone, prob never coming back and I'm stuck with these memories. Feelings and situations that were reality a few months back are just fantasies now.

 

Life can be very cruel, as you know. Your prob like me now wondering if another girl can bring us back to that place where these girls took us. I've already starting dating again an so far not so good! Are you dating again?

[StraylightRun24]

It's mind boggling? I don't know what people around you told you when you try to explain your situation to them but all my friends told me it has to be another new guy or an ex boyfriend who entered back into the picture. Their rationale was why would she go from having something with me and she enjoys having sex to nothing? Even if she wasn't in love with me why would she choose nothing over me? Kind of makes sense to me but I have no proof?

 

You right about the old emails and I have a few photos of her on my phone too. Matter of fact this crazy girl texted me new photos of her just about 3-weeks ago. I haven't seen her since Feb and she's texting me photos in Mid April. Talk about a tease! I don't understand her motives sometimes.

 

Yeah something about the AM's a really hard for me. It's like everytime I go to sleep I'm hoping I'm going to wake up and things will fix themselves and go back to the way it was. But then I realize she's gone, prob never coming back and I'm stuck with these memories. Feelings and situations that were reality a few months back are just fantasies now.

 

Life can be very cruel, as you know. Your prob like me now wondering if another girl can bring us back to that place where these girls took us. I've already starting dating again an so far not so good! Are you dating again?

 

It's really hard to say if there was someone else when we have no proof, but of course that enter our minds. I really think it might be easier to move on if there actually was someone else cause it's a lot better than getting, "it's nothing that you did..." My female friends basically thought she was crazy for the whole "spark" comment. As one said, "What does she think this is? A rom-com? That's not how real life works!" lol My guy friends basically just did the whole, "eff her....you don't need her any way." Her one friend that I actually got to know a little bit was shocked she dumped me. Ironically I ran into him the day after the BU (isn't it great how life likes to kick you when you're down?) and he ended up FBing me that night asking what the heck happened? He had actually taken her to his High School reunion a few weeks beforehand (he was in the a middle of divorce so took her as a friend) when I was out of town and he told me she was completely gung-ho about me. He believed that she ended because she was planning on moving this summer and didn't want to get any more involved with me because she didn't want to get hurt when she moved. It's a good theory, but I can only take her word on why she ended things. I apparently just wasn't "the one."

 

Maybe I was going a tad overboard with the whole deleting of the emails. If they mean that much to you I would just save them on a memory stick and throw it in a place you'll forget about them and not be tempted to read. As for her sending you pictures of herself....wow! The girl I was involved with before my current ex would do **** like that and it really hampered and confused the crap out of. I basically was in limbo for an additional 7 months because while she was happy with her new BF, for whatever reason she just couldn't let me completely go. Eff that noise dude! That's exactly one of the reason I told my current ex I needed her not to contact me. It sucks either way but at least with the NC I have a fighting chance! Try your hardest to not be sucked into her little game cause sadly that's all it is.

 

That's the scariest part for me IS IT Better Late wondering if I'll find someone like her again. My closest friends call me out on this sort of thinking and are 100% right. They say I get so hung up on somebody because I think this my absolute last chance of finding someone and if it doesn't work I'm doomed to be alone. It's pretty ridiculous, but sadly they are right. What also scares the crap out of me is that I feel when I do get involved with the next girl I'm going to sabotage it because I'll be thinking back on this relationship and getting broken up with after believing everything was good. I have gone out on 1 date and that was about a month after the BU. It was way too soon and while the girl was extremely nice (we actually still hang out....in a group setting) it just felt sooooo wrong.

 

I actually caved last night and looked at my ex's FB.....don't know why I did it and let me tell you, it was a bad idea.

[IS IT Better late]

I think at the end of the day it's all about if they see a future with you. This girl had a lot of aspirations for her life outside of getting married having kids. She wanted to become a doctor and was very immersed in her schooling. So even though she's going to be 30 this year she had no sense of urgency to find the "one". But apparently she saw something in me she didn't like and it freaked her out?? I really don't know. But as I've said if you would've videotaped us together you would've thought we were both in full blown love as she was very affectionate towards me, couldn't keep her hands off of me. Was your girl the same way?

 

I hate when ppl say ohh just get over it. Especially my male friends, annoys the shyt out of me! It's been 8 years since I last felt this way about a girl and I should just pretend like it didn't happen? Ppl sometimes give you the worst advice at the worst times.

 

This girl is not on FB which is good b/c I'm on it. That would sink me if I saw her all happy shyt with some new dude and I'm over here picking up the pieces of my life. Stay away dude, nothing positive coming from that. I'm guilty of reading old emails and texts too, really upsets me!

 

I really don't know what to do next, I'm feeling a little better but still missing her like I've never missed anyone in the world. It's been a little over 2-weeks since we last texted. I'm gonna keep NC as long as my sanity will allow it. You're doing a much better job than me with that! How tough has it been?

 

I'm scared about the future too b/c like I said I waited a really long time to feel this away about a girl and really don't have the time to wait this long again. Just really f-ing cruel! I feel like a dog teased with a bone, and now somebody pulled it away and I'm looking for it again. I think we both need a little serendipty, hopefully we'll both be around another girl who makes us feel this way again and she doesn't run away!! lol. Is there a spell check on this thing? I can't spell for shyt!!

[StraylightRun24]

I think at the end of the day it's all about if they see a future with you. This girl had a lot of aspirations for her life outside of getting married having kids. She wanted to become a doctor and was very immersed in her schooling. So even though she's going to be 30 this year she had no sense of urgency to find the "one". But apparently she saw something in me she didn't like and it freaked her out?? I really don't know. But as I've said if you would've videotaped us together you would've thought we were both in full blown love as she was very affectionate towards me, couldn't keep her hands off of me. Was your girl the same way?

 

I hate when ppl say ohh just get over it. Especially my male friends, annoys the shyt out of me! It's been 8 years since I last felt this way about a girl and I should just pretend like it didn't happen? Ppl sometimes give you the worst advice at the worst times.

 

This girl is not on FB which is good b/c I'm on it. That would sink me if I saw her all happy shyt with some new dude and I'm over here picking up the pieces of my life. Stay away dude, nothing positive coming from that. I'm guilty of reading old emails and texts too, really upsets me!

 

I really don't know what to do next, I'm feeling a little better but still missing her like I've never missed anyone in the world. It's been a little over 2-weeks since we last texted. I'm gonna keep NC as long as my sanity will allow it. You're doing a much better job than me with that! How tough has it been?

 

I'm scared about the future too b/c like I said I waited a really long time to feel this away about a girl and really don't have the time to wait this long again. Just really f-ing cruel! I feel like a dog teased with a bone, and now somebody pulled it away and I'm looking for it again. I think we both need a little serendipty, hopefully we'll both be around another girl who makes us feel this way again and she doesn't run away!! lol. Is there a spell check on this thing? I can't spell for shyt!!

 

I had a dog and BINGO was his name! I think you are right with the whole "not seeing a potential future" with us. These two girls sound very similar, it's quite scary. My ex has aspirations of being a musician and was planning on moving across the country to give it one last go. She told me this about a month into seeing her just about the time things seemed to go from the casual date to the beginning of a relationship. Obviously looking back on that moment that was a MAJOR red flag, but I told her then and continued to tell her that I supported that decision 100%. A couple of weeks before the eventual BU she brought up the fact that she felt guilty for entering into a relationship with me when she was planning on moving and "we" as a couple would have to end meaning we had no future....

 

We also were very affectionate towards each other. Her sister would tell us to cut all the cutesy crap out lol. While my male friends were shocked about the BU it actually was my female friends that were in fact floored. At least 3 of them couldn't believe it because of the PDA and all that stuff. It makes absolutely no sense and sadly probably never will. I guess we'll both be here scratching our heads for a little while longer!

 

Yea I love the "just move on from her" advice. For how short of a relationship it was and how long I'm pining over her, don't you think I want to! For whatever reason it's just not that easy for me!

 

You are lucky she doesn't have a FB. That sh*t is the devil and I'm too stupid to stop myself from putting my hand in the flames. There wasn't anything of importance on it cause she hardly posts anything, but it still brought me down cause I'm no longer a part of her life.

 

I hear you about missing her more than anything in the world. NC is hard as hell but after a while like you said it does get easier. I won't lie I still wish that when my phone rings or I receive a text that it will be her so that part of the whole NC is still a process for me, but I really have very little urge to actually to reach out to her at this point. What helps me is that I saw her when an ex who hadn't talked to her in over a year randomly texted her to let her know he was going to her next show and she just gave me the look of shock and a little annoyance. I wouldn't want her doing that if I called/texted her with possibly her new man!

 

There will be other girls for us dude. On one of my first dates with my ex we got into the discussion if we had ever been in love and I told her that I didn't really know. I mean I thought I had been in love before (sadly I now know I wasn't at all!) and I told her, "I believe we have many soulmates. It's ridiculous to think there is just one person out there for us. I believe there are many the "ones."" Even though I'm having a real difficult time seeing that myself right on I know it's true.

Edited May 3, 2013 by StraylightRun24