jumbojet123 Posted March 18, 2013 Posted March 18, 2013 He broke up with me Jan 21st and it has been hell. I finally stopped talking to him and gave up after Valentine's day. I faced the facts that it was over and he moved on and I am dead to him. Somehow other human beings can be selfish and emotionless even though I gave him my heart. He said he wanted to be friends but he is not there. I refuse to chase after him if this is how it is. I have tried to move on and get over myself and stop being pathetic because I am furious..so angry that I was with him for a year and thought he was the one up until the day he left me..and he is doing just fine like I never happened. I am so angry and it is wasted energy I tried for a month to put the energy to good use, exercise, friends, work. Now I have fallen off course, I feel I cant fake it anymore. I just miss him. I feel dead. I am back to the way I felt after he dumped me. I cry and don't want to do anything. Only now I am filled with anger and now only sadness and hurt. I am sick of it. he can just go on with his life the day after he dumped me, be doing great and here I am a complete mess. And I still love him, or whatever I thought he was. But I won't text him. I'm not an idiot. I've been there done that. I'm a blip in his radar. A nothing. He is indifferent. Has better things to worry about than me. If he was a normal human being he could at least have feelings. But he is not. Just venting. I am stuck.
Love4Pain Posted March 18, 2013 Posted March 18, 2013 I feel the same way. We talked up until a week ago and now it feels like he doesn't even care about messaging. They lost great partners in us and maybe one day they will learn their lesson. Try to keep doing those positive things again for yourself, until you're not faking it and it's honestly making you feel better and back to feeling like a great person.
Coping Vortex Posted March 18, 2013 Posted March 18, 2013 He broke up with me Jan 21st and it has been hell. I finally stopped talking to him and gave up after Valentine's day. I faced the facts that it was over and he moved on and I am dead to him. Somehow other human beings can be selfish and emotionless even though I gave him my heart. He said he wanted to be friends but he is not there. I refuse to chase after him if this is how it is. I have tried to move on and get over myself and stop being pathetic because I am furious..so angry that I was with him for a year and thought he was the one up until the day he left me..and he is doing just fine like I never happened. I am so angry and it is wasted energy I tried for a month to put the energy to good use, exercise, friends, work. Now I have fallen off course, I feel I cant fake it anymore. I just miss him. I feel dead. I am back to the way I felt after he dumped me. I cry and don't want to do anything. Only now I am filled with anger and now only sadness and hurt. I am sick of it. he can just go on with his life the day after he dumped me, be doing great and here I am a complete mess. And I still love him, or whatever I thought he was. But I won't text him. I'm not an idiot. I've been there done that. I'm a blip in his radar. A nothing. He is indifferent. Has better things to worry about than me. If he was a normal human being he could at least have feelings. But he is not. Just venting. I am stuck. The only solace I can give you is you are not alone. I feel EXACTLY the same way. She wanted to stay friends I took the crumbs at the time and now she won't even bother to do that. I'm not even a thought on her mind. She is happy with her new bf I. Love and head over heals. Just a few months ago she felt that way about me. Not fair we suffer when they are the ones that caused the pain. I wish had better things to recommend to you other than you are not alone. But I like you have no other words of wisdom but to suffer in silence.
Mcnulty Posted March 18, 2013 Posted March 18, 2013 Was reading an article, a rock star who's dying of cancer, I remember vividly him saying that he's suffered depression many times and that now he knows he's dying, he lives in the here and now, the past is gone, can't be undone, the only thing that matters is the present, living in the moment and that he wishes he hadn't dwelled on things and carried pain, because it got him nowhere and he felt he'd wasted months maybe years hurting over people that didn't matter, they didn't care about him. Everything in life has an end...everything, if you think about it and if we let these endings define us, if we carry them and carry them, we will be scarred and one day we will look back and think, god, what a waste of energy and heartache, where did it get me, did it get them back...no. Think about what you will think about yourself right now, your pain in years to come..nearly all people have the 20/20 hindsight to say, god i shouldn't have wasted so much time going over things in my mind. The heart has no eyes, it's an emotional deity, , but the mind has eyes...look to the future as well as living in the present, because that's all that matters, the now, to enable a better future for you. Time is your ally, that and patience. We have to hurt in order to know. Fall in order to grow and lose in order to gain.. Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars...Kahlil Gibran. 1
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