Thunderchild Posted March 16, 2013 Posted March 16, 2013 (edited) Good Morning Everyone, Once again, congratulations on surviving to another day. May you find the strength you need to get through the next minute, hour, day, week etc. Another “tomorrow” has arrived and you are stronger for it. I’m now on Day 28 of full, hardcore, no nonsense No Contact with ex. I can’t believe that I’ve made it thus far. So, I’m shouting out a big “THANK YOU” to you guys (and gals) out there who have listened to my ramblings and kept me on the straight course. Well, another early rise for me. I am tentatively hoping that the broken sleep is a thing of the past. Now, I’m waking up early because I’m napping through the day. I know I shouldn’t do it, but I can’t write when I feel tired and I want to get this manuscript finished before the end of March and, hence, on the shelves for the summer holiday market. I’ll run with the napping thing until I’m finished this manuscript. Meanwhile I’m busy with the writing – that’s two novels fully finished this year (I’ll do two more and start a couple of other projects in the Autumn/Winter). I have reconnected with a lot of old friends, but they have established lives now, so I’m joining one of the local social groups. Pub Quiz on Wednesday – beware – I now that Goldfinger’s first name was “Auric”, that the actor’s name was Gert Frobe and that in real life he was an accomplished concert Cellist. I am everybody’s Trivial Pursuit nightmare. The fitness regime is starting to show results, my trousers now struggle to stay on my frame as opposed to struggling to hold it in. And, I really need to get my teeth sorted out. Too many extractions when I was younger. I need to look at those implant things and get my jaw in better shape. I almost had a date today with this Match.com thing. Contacted someone, seemed nice; didn’t think I looked like Quasimodo, texted/e-mailed for a week or so, made all the right noises. So, I suggested meeting for a drink to get the ‘chemistry/spark’ thing out of the way. Suddenly, she’s back pedalling – challenged her (as is my won’t) and she says she really just prefers to text and message and that we’re not that compatible really. Yes, just let me text/e-mail for a couple of months (stroking your ego), then get blown off with the ‘I don’t really fancy you’ line. It’s not just exes who can be emotional parasites. Glad I learned that lesson quickly. Speaking of exes. The big breakthrough was realising that I didn’t want to be with her again. In the final analysis, I don’t need a selfish, immature, narcissistic coward in my life. Especially not one who cheated on me and is now pregnant by her paramour. I still suspect she had been screwing him prior to breaking up with me. Well, they can get on with it. I’ve thrown her to the wolves. I spent a great deal of time in the relationship supporting her in her issues, problems and ambitions. That’s all gone now. And, I suspect that the idea of the world being filled with kind, generous, supportive guys who will always be there for her will get old pretty d*mn*d quickly. I’ve done nothing to be ashamed of. I did what a decent, caring and loving boyfriend should have done. I kept my dignity (I didn’t beg plead or grovel at the break up) and I challenged her BS and excuses at the break up. There’ll be someone out there who will move mountains for what I have to offer. Plus, she knows that I won't tolerate her cr*p - she knows that I will stamp on her nonsense ruthlessly - so very little chance of breadcrumbs. She forgot that she was dealing with someone with integrity. She will eventually learn that most ancient of lessons – in the Kingdom of Selfish, there’s only room for one. Live Long & Prosper Edited March 16, 2013 by Thunderchild 1
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