biggysmilez Posted March 14, 2013 Posted March 14, 2013 and i'm still a mess. i'm on a roller coaster. he broke up with me during a fight. i left for a walk to cool off and, when i got back, he had a u-haul. i really don't think it was pre-meditated but the shock is still too much. i have no interest in contacting him, but i cannot stop crying. i miss him so much. he's all i can think of. i feel sick. is there something wrong with me that i'm grieving so much? like, do i have a harder time with this than others because of my particular personality and childhood? i feel like it's going to take me a very long time to get over this and i just want to be well. i seriously feel ill.
Author biggysmilez Posted March 14, 2013 Author Posted March 14, 2013 i should mention that i've been NC for two weeks.
coralie Posted March 15, 2013 Posted March 15, 2013 I think that's pretty normal, actually. There are so many here who have mentioned it feeling worse than anything they've ever experienced in life, and there's so much talk of excruciating and unbearable pain, and I know I've read articles comparing heartbreak to death of a loved one. For me personally, this is truly the worst feeling I've ever experienced in life by far, so it's pretty bad. It will get better though. You need time to grieve, and then you can think of picking yourself up and trying to heal and move on. NC will definitely help. Hang in there.
portableversion Posted March 15, 2013 Posted March 15, 2013 ive had various family members die and for me it was tiddly winks comapered to this crap. yeah nc, i havent had the strength, it took much healing to get to the place where i stopped calling her, more healing to ignore her calls, but i still dont have it in me to turn her away when she wants to visit me. I have had a lot of confusion about this but as long as she has other man it costs me way to much. I ignored her text on wednesday morning and i started crying , at least i had my act together when she showed up 10 minutes later. Hang inthere, for me i started going to church again, and i worked out a lot, but it wasnt easy at all, i cried and cried and cried andcried some more, one time my eyes were dry heaving. but crying is the best. Im lucky to be laid off right now i can goto church every morning provided my sleep schedule is good.
Author biggysmilez Posted March 15, 2013 Author Posted March 15, 2013 it is the worst pain i've ever been in, for sure. i get overwhelmed because i just don't want to feel like this for a really long time, but i know that i will. it took me five years to truly get over my past relationship and we didn't live together or date nearly as long. and my ex, he told me that he just dusts his shoulders off and moves on. he even told me when he was packing up to leave while i was bawling and begging that he felt fine. not that i should worry about him, but it is maddening. i applaud everyone's bravery on here. i hope we all find love and happiness.
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