lamaga Posted March 14, 2013 Posted March 14, 2013 So, my ex broke up with me about 2,5 weeks ago. We've gone NC since then and I was feeling pretty awful the first week. I stayed in bed, looked at his facebook, instagram, etc, tried to find out through friends what he was doing etc. But then, I decided to take my life in my own hands. I started going swimming, changed my hair, started to see old friends and went out a lot and a few days later I already felt much, much better. I liked being AROUND MYSELF again. It was a very sudden change... And right in the moment where I had stopped waiting for a sign, HE emailed me. And for a moment my heart was beating really fast, but then I realized - wow, I actually feel really good right now and couldn't care less. HE was the one who needed space, HE was the one who wanted to be alone and go to India and didn't want to commit 'right now'. A few days ago I met with an old friend and we went to a party where I was introduced to another guy. He is my age (my ex was 2 years younger, I am 26 by the way), also just got out of a long term relationship and I feel butterflies everywhere. I know it wont be anything substantial, especially because I am going to Italy next week (cliche, I know, but I had to do it..). But it's fun to be in the dating pool again, knowing there are other fish in the sea. Who knows what will happen. As far as my ex goes - I still love him deeply and hope that maybe a year from now things will look different and maybe we even have a chance again at being together. But right now things are just great the way they are and I want to encourage everybody out there to DO THINGS, DISTRACT YOURSELF to the point where you actually feel not empty anymore. I managed. I think for many people this takes longer and maybe I will have some sort of fall-back in the near future, but what matters is that I smile and laugh again. 2
Author lamaga Posted March 14, 2013 Author Posted March 14, 2013 We were together for a year in total, with lots of geographical challenges.. I will be in Rome for most time, I think!
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