want him back Posted September 8, 2004 Posted September 8, 2004 This guy and i dated for two years. Every thing was going good and Him and i were getting serious. He actually brought up the subject of i think we are ment to be. I had a great best friend at the time her name was alex. well it was an early dissmisal and me and my other friend christy were gonna go bak to my house and hang out for a while. while ryan(my boyfriend) and alex and a bunch of other people were gonna go to one of our friends houses. well it turns out ryan and alex had a little fun. it hurt me sooooo bad i was in so much pain. because i love him. of course he says hes sorry and i take him bak in a second. and i had made up with alex and every thing was ok. so alex and i are hanging out one day and the next day she decides to spread a rumor about me saying i was a lezbo. well homo's a shunned from our highschool. every thing went from going great to no bestfriend, no boyfriend, no friends at all. my life was a living hell whole. it hurt soo bad. and it gets worse my brother is best friends with ryans older brother so i got to see him all the time because ryan and his bro are really close and so they both come over alot. so i was in so much pain seeing the guy i love who apparenty didnt love me. when you see something you love and you know hates you you get this feeling if feels like a hole in me that i cant fill up and when i see him it starts to shake untill your whole body is fighting bak the shaking and you have to look away to keep the tears back. every night i would have these two dreams one was where we made up and i run to him and he throws his arms around me and every thing is the way it used to be. and the second dream is we are stading at the gates of heaven and god says that he wants to take one of us but he prefers it to be ryan and i say no take me instead. and then i wake up crying. I think it scares me that it doent scare me that i would die for him. and yet it scares me that i cant be with him. i need help. i dont know what to do. i love him with all of my heart but i cant say anything. please help me.
hla76 Posted September 8, 2004 Posted September 8, 2004 i am gonna try to help you here ok.I just went through the same thing a lil over a month ago.but we were engaged and everything.He broke it off with me for some other girl.she was from England.And I just found out today that she moved here to be with him.I am trying to go on with my life and take it day by day.I am gonna tell you the same thing.I know it hurts and a lot of days you probably dont feel like living anymore,but you just have to try to go on with your life and live it day by day.thats what i am doing and it hurts like hell.I know how you are feeling right now.I was with him for over 3 years and now he does this.and 3 years is a long time to be with somone.it has only been a month since we split and i am still thinking about him everyday.I hope i helped a lil bit at leaste.If you ever want to talk you can email me or add me to your yahoo im.my email is [email protected] my im is lil_miss_player_76.let me know how things are going.
nowigetit Posted September 8, 2004 Posted September 8, 2004 I am so sorry you are dealing with this. I was in a similar situation when I was 19 years old. I met this guy during my first semester of college who was 8 years older than me. We started seeing each other, and he asked me to move out of the dorm and in with him beginning the spring semester, so, of course, I loved him, and moved in. I did EVERYTHING for this guy!! He had many bills (credit cards, loans, car payment) that I worked to pay for because he couldn't pay for them alone. Mind you, these were HIS bills, before we were together. Naive, I know!! So, the next August I found out I was pregnant. I was 19, he was 27. At first, he was so excited, and even told me he was glad I was having his baby. This is the same guy who met another girl, almost 2 years younger than me, and threw me out of his house in October, when I was 3 months pregnant to be with her. Mind you, she KNEW he had a pregnant girlfriend living with him. Even after what he did to me, I loved him. I was so dumb. I spent the remaining 6 months of my pregnancy alone, then, he decided to come around after the baby was born. Again, I was dumb, and started sleeping with him again. He lived almost 2 hours away, so, it wasn't a daily thing. But, he was still with the girl he threw me out of the house for. I know it's bad, but, I justified what I was doing because it was the same thing she did to me. It took me almost 1 1/2 years to get over him, but, it was worth it. I have since been married for 5 years to a man who would NEVER cheat on me. I guess what I am trying to say is, I know it hurts, real bad, but, he is not worth it! You WILL meet someone who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated, and love you the way you love them. I am guessing you are still quite young, so, I know it is hard to listen to advice. I was there. Everyone tried to tell me he was a snake and asked what I was doing wasting my time on him, but, I didn't see it until it was too late!
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