McDonald Posted March 11, 2013 Posted March 11, 2013 It recently been going pretty well for me. However as the quarter winds down... finals come up. We are in whats called dead week... basically no one does anything outside of school activities because finals are next week. This whol breakup had really taken its toll on me as I am extremeely far behiend in my studies. Now it is starting to hit hard. The stress of the school work, grades, and with that.. comes the thoughts of the BU that I havent had in awhile. It just upsets me how all this has happened. Where.. just last quarter, we were having the time of our lives... and i was getting the best grades ever because I was able to study everyday with her. I know I can do it on my own. I know I have to... just somedays.. I wish I wasnt alone. That I wish there was someone here to cheer me on.. to text me right after my test and ask me how I did before I could even say I finished it. So its not even about her anymore... its all about my feelings, and how I can make them better... sadly... my heart says she is what can make it better,,,, but that just isnt true. My heart is blind. It cant see. Damn I cant beleive its already been 3 months. All this time wasted... makes it feel like it just wasnt worth it.
Author McDonald Posted March 12, 2013 Author Posted March 12, 2013 Crap I almost blew it by trying to run int other. Holy h*t I have done that in weeks! I ended up seeing a girl I knew though hand we were talking and then i was thinking I hope my ex sees me right now talking to this girl cause she is good looking. but nope. When she left I just had to go home and get off campus.. After this week... there will be no way I can purposely run into her as our classes change and we get new schedules and I dont know where she will be. Im in a way relived at this.. but sadden. i feel like I have lost the battle.
Author McDonald Posted March 12, 2013 Author Posted March 12, 2013 Here's another problem I am having. Why can't I be angry at her ? I was at one point but not anymore... More disappointed. And maybe I'm not even missing the relationship but the young boy in me is missing the s*x more.... Maybe once I find another girl this will all be done
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