Johnny16 Posted September 7, 2004 Posted September 7, 2004 Omg, I love her so much, and nobody knows how much she truly means to me. We have been dating for about a year and three months. We saw eachother everyday and night, you can sorta say I was whipped by her but I seen her that much be cause I wanted to. She lives down the street from me. I tried telling her we are prone to fight seeing eachother 8 hours a day. So sure we will fight more than most couples because most couples dont see eachother as much as we do. She just always looks at the ****ing negatives. And I just ****ed everything up. I would do anything for her, I honestly thought she was the one. We have had so much fun together. God damn it she is always right when we argue. I am so ****ing stupid We lost our virginity together and have known eachother for over 4 years now and have been friends most of that time. Both of us are very close to eachothers familys, I have no siblings and her younger brother and sister are like my brother and sister. I cant live without her, this is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I cant explain how upset I am right now, I cant talk to anyone and I turn to her for my only help. I have a temper, towards her and my family...and I cant change it. I never hit any of them but I have a bad attitude and I dont know where I got it from, I HATE MYSELF FOR THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEA I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT AND MAKE ME NOT HAVE AN ATTITUDE TOWARDS THE PEOPLE WHO MATTER MOST BUT IT ALWAYS ENDS UP HAPPENING NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY. I make my own mom cry sometimes because of the attitude I give her and how I swear at her and make fun of where she works.....I dont mean anything by it but my attitude just happens! Im not a mean person Im shy to people I dont know....... Omg nothing is going right in my life and there is seriously no point in continuing on seriously....I just feel as if everyone would be happy if i was gone, I make thier lives a living hell and i know i do and i just cant ****ing stop it no matter what i do! I hate myself so ****ing much!!!!@!!@!2111!!!!
Iloveadam Posted September 7, 2004 Posted September 7, 2004 OMIGOD you sound like u r going through excatly the same thing that i am going through. the only difference is that mine is with a lad. i can honselty say that i dnt know what to do? but dont do what i do and take attiude with your mum cuz i do that and i am really trying to stop but it is so frustrating when u cant get stuff to go your way espacailly when it is to do with hte heart. but think about when u get angery and how much it hurts pple. I know you really want her back but try and change first and then when you have she will see what i nice person you can be and will want you back and you will be happy again. but if you can prove to her you can not be like that then she will. but i used to argue with my ex adam and i miss him but he is being a complete idoit to me and asked me bk out then went out with some1 else wen i said yes. but first try and be mates with her again. then everything should fall back into place. im not that good at the moment becuase im still suffering from a broken heart but this is the best i can do. i hope this helps you. Louise
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