zse45tgb Posted March 10, 2013 Posted March 10, 2013 So last week I decided me and my ex/girlfriend (not 100% sure yet) should give each other 2 months NC and revisit things later. I mostly did this for me to heal and move on and we plan on seriously revisiting things later and working out our kinks, as we were not getting anywhere talking and trying to solve things. We also agreed not to see anyone during this period (I actually have no doubts this will happen, but still, always on the side of caution, I know the best thing for me is to not care to make moving on easier). Sadly today I broke NC after a struggle with myself all week if I should get a hold of her or not, as I was thinking maybe I said things in the heat of the moment. Anyways I called her, and it was sorta awkward like expected. I sung her a song I was working on and she liked it very much. She was concerned that I broke contact but said "Don't get me wrong, I love being able to hear you and your song but I feel like this was your idea, I just want you to keep your promise is all." (being sticking to NC until 2 months from now) So yeah, things are good and I let her know I would because I would have to show her that. I actually feel very relieved right now and know for a fact that I won't be contacting her again until I see her at our designated meeting place after 2 months. I feel stupid and weak for breaking NC but I felt like when I implemented it I left things on a bad note. Today I left things on a good note. Believe me when I know it could just make things more sour between us, but as of now I have absolutely no desire to break NC and feel like I can move on way easier. I'm not advocating breaking NC if that's the route you've decided to take, I think that it is a bad idea all of the time. All I'm simply saying is I feel liberated and feel like I'll be able to move on much easier. I'm aware I'll have my bad days still but I'm going out tonight, have solid plans for the next 2 months and even after and won't be on facebook or skype and I plan on leaving my phone at home when I'm out and plan on putting it away somewhere when I'm at home. I dunno, I could have messed things up but I feel so good, and moving on will be so much easier now.
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