Bando89 Posted March 9, 2013 Posted March 9, 2013 Today is a hard day. Yesterday it was women's day and I know my ex was at one of the concerts of her new guy. It didn't bother me: I went out with my friends to a club, had really a lot of fun and went home at 4 am. Great night! The problem is today... I feel sad. I've visited my ex's facebook profile (that I deleted, so I can't see much) like 20 times today and I can't seem to stop I also checked her emails again...urgh. Fortunately, nothing new but this is really something I have to stop. Everytime I check them, I tell myself 'this was the last time, I'm stupid' but then some days later I always fall back to it. I wish she'd randomly change her password so I can stop it :/ I rationally know that I can't get over a 1 year relationship in a month and a half, so I just need to be patience, wait, let time do its thing, but some days it's so hard. Today I took a nap and I dreamed about her coming back to me, saying she's sorry etc... Pff. I still have the feeling that I lost the love of my life, that if I had met her before I could have been there during her parents' divorce and she would not have been hit so hard by hit. It's terrible. Today I've started reading again all the articles about 'gigs', 'second chances', 'rebounds' and it's not healthy because this story is over, it's over... I even thought about asking a very pretty friend of mine to come with me to a pub when my ex will be there to try to make her jealous. This is stupid, but today my thoughts are all on this wavelenght.
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