She broke up with me twice, now wants me back... plus she's my best friend

[PandaMan]

Basically I met this girl in August of 2011 on the first day of college and we became best friends really quickly. We spent pretty much every day together for a loooong time. I grew feelings for her, and she grew feelings for me. In October of 2012 we told each other how we felt (she told me first) and we started dating soon after.

 

Everything went great, then she broke up with me on our 2 month anniversary in December. She said it was because she was scared of relationships and wanted to be single. Then, three days later, she was knocking on my door while crying. So I let her in and she said she wanted to get back together because she felt like there was a hole in her life now. I loved and missed her dearly, so of course I said yes. And things went well for another 2 months.

 

After another 2 months she started acting very distant. She was not acting normal, so I brought it up and asked if everything was alright. This was in very early February of 2013. She said that she had only been seeing me as her best friend recently and not more than that. And since this was the case she broke up with me again.

 

It's been around 5 weeks since we broke up the final time. The first two and a half weeks following this I did not really see her or talk to her very much. Then some of our friends got into a big fight and I got dragged into it, along with my ex. It was a blessing in disguise though because it resulted in us talking on the phone for around an hour about a lot of stuff that we had to get off our chests. After this we started hanging out a lot and spending a lot of time together, but just as friends. We've spent a lot of time together the 2.5 weeks since the phone call where we talked for awhile.

 

About 3 days ago she told me that she still loves me and asked if I wanted to get back together. She said she had gotten over her fear of relationships/love or something and wanted to get back together. I told her I didn't know, since she had broken up with me twice already and I wanted to save myself from future heartbreak. So she asked me to think about it and I told her I would. But I don't know what to do. She broke up with me twice on a dime and I feel like I'd always be thinking about it happening again if we got back together. If there's any advice at all that'd be soooo appreciated... I'm stuck on what to do

[KoKo0]

I think she doesn't know what that feeling inside her really is, you've been close friends for a year, spending a lot of time together and of course you're going to love that person because they are your friend and you get along so well to spend each day together, but she mixed up two kind of loves (friendsship/bestfriend) and the (couple) love. I think she sees you only as a friend, so when she breaks up with you, of course you're not going to spend much time together again, and this is what is causing the empty feeling for her and she thinks if you are together she will close it up, but really in 2 months she begins distant and its a never ending cycle, you need to just stay friends.