gravi1 Posted March 6, 2013 Posted March 6, 2013 The day starts good, no too bad or good feelings. I can carry on fairly normaly untill sunset. I then get these nightmarish thoughts. All these near traumatic replays of how my ex tricked and lied to me so she could be with her others or after she has been with them (I am not sure as she communicated with several men, seeing her cell records combined with the fact that her cell was off at irregular times and her whereabouts unknown). I keep analysing the cellphone records in my mind, although I destroyed them already. I keep remembering her trying to deny the obvious.I makes me so sad, anxious and stressfull asif its hapenning right now. I ask myself why she had to do all this. She hasnt contact me in 7 days. I know nothing she can say will ever make things right or go away and it doesnt matter if she does either. I know the last time she contacted me with sweet talk, was probably to get some money from me.Why does it make me so deeply sad, I get anxious and restless when these thoughts come, feels like I have to be somewhere quick, I get agitated. I know whats good for me, I dont contact her and I dont hold my cell in my hand and wait for any text or calls from her, but I just feel so crying sad.
creighton0123 Posted March 6, 2013 Posted March 6, 2013 Get alone (or with a close friend) and go ahead and cry it out. Don't force yourself to not cry. You'll never heal unless you get all of the grief out.
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