My ex won't know her happy trip means an emotionally devastating time for me

[EggyComics]

My ex broke up with me back in December last year because she couldn't handle the long-distance-relationship. When I left her and came to Japan in August of last year, she assured me that she'd come join me soon. 2 months after I landed in Japan, she changed her mind, and two more months after that, she left me.

 

Before I had left for Japan, she often talked about how she would come visit me (after all, it's only a 2.5 hour flight away). She said she'd come, and I believed her.

 

But sometime before the break-up, back in October, she told me one day that her friend had invited her to go on a trip to Japan together. My ex agreed and took 5 days off work for a 9 day trip.

 

This was such a huge slap in the face for me. Despite of my ex's promise to me that she'd visit, she chose to go with her friend instead. When I asked her if she'd come visit me during the trip with her friend (a 2 hour bus ride away from where she'll be staying), she said no. When I asked her if I can tag along, she said only for one day on the account of her shy friend (but I'm your f**ing LDR bf!!). And when I asked her if she would take days off work to come visit me in the future...she said no...

 

Please remember that this happened before we broke up. Now that we're not together any longer, I should care less. BUT IT HURTS, it still does. I'm painfully aware that at the time when she made this decision, she had already lost a lot of feelings for me. She had done many other insensitive things during this period, and I had forgiven and dismissed most of them. Yet this one lingers as the ultimate betrayal to me. I've tried hard to forget about it...but I can't...

 

My ex will be coming on Mar 9~16 (trust me, I didn't even want to know about the dates but I only recently accidentally discovered it). When she arrives, I'll know that she will be staying at the city where we met. I'll know that she'll be going to places where we had many of our dates. Will she be reminded of me? Will she realize that only 2 hours away, I lie here suffering on dashed dreams and hope as she had left me?

 

Once upon a time, my ex landing on Japanese soil meant a happy reunion. I'd wait outside the gates eagerly looking for her face among the crowd. I'd spot her, hug and kiss her, carry her luggage with one hand while holding her hand with another. I'd take her home, and we'd live happily together.

 

That dream isn't there anymore. From Mar 9~16, I might be emotionally devasted, I just don't know it yet.

[Love4Pain]

I'm sorry. It really sucks that she would plan a trip with her friend and not even want to see you while you were still together. It might be easier for you since you won't be actually seeing her during her trip, and you can try to keep yourself busy during that week to keep your mind off of it.

 

In my case with my LDR bf, he broke up with me (due to the distance he said >_>) the week I was flying to see him, and I had to deal with the pain of seeing him and the girl he left me for together for the whole week.

 

Stay strong! You can always post on here if you're sad or mad or glad!