Full night sleep test

[Coping Vortex]

I know now the night I get a full nights sleep is the time I will be truly heading toward true healing. That is my litmus test for getting past this BU.

 

I have accepted so much so far. She is gone. she is with someone new. She is in love with him and not me. She is not coming back.

 

But the sleep is the last part of the equation which I haven't been able to solve. The constant thoughts have been killing me. I keep picturing them doing everyday things together as well as saying all kinds of loving things to each other like we used to do. And of course the sex. All kind of torturing images pop into my mind.

 

My subconscious won't stop torturing me.

 

The day i get a full nights sleep (without Xanax) is the day I am truly on the road to healing. I am hoping that day comes soon.

[RiceaRoni]

It's alright :/ I suffered a lot of lack of sleep too, and I still do (5 mo post BU) I used to only get 2 hours of sleep and then wake up and go on this forum and the Internet trying to find answers, torturing myself..

 

Now some nights I do get a full amount if sleep, but I still have nights where I'll wake up at 2 or 3 am out of no where and begin thinking. It kills me and frustrates me sometimes because I don't know what else to do, but I just keep telling myself there is nothing I CAN do except move on and try to find happiness somewhere else.

 

 

It will get easier

[drpepper1886]

Try meditating and journalling write before bed.

[Amelie1980]

I wouldn't be too sure of that......

 

I used to have terrible sleep problems now since I've sunk into depression really badly I sleep too much.

[Amelie1980]

The excessive sleeping is more debilitating as I cannot function.

[RiceaRoni]

Try meditating and journalling write before bed.

 

The journal idea works you write all your thoughts down to clear your head and then eventually you just feel better