homsimpsona Posted February 27, 2013 Posted February 27, 2013 Okay, so I am typing this because I just wanna get it out of my system. I saw a girl in a shop, 6 years ago... Her AMAZING eyes caught my attention. I just thought, what's the point, I'm only 12 this year and we will both be going to different schools. Keep in your mind that I only saw her at a store... 2 weeks later, I started secondary school. BAM, she's there... So much happiness went through my mind. An amazing feeling. I really wanted to talk to her, which was made much easier because our school had a program for new students to get to know each other within the first few weeks. Surprise surprise, I was put in her group... but we never got to talk because even though we were in the same group, we both got split up. So, year 7 and 8 went by. In year 9, I thought I should really make my move before it's too late. So, I asked my other female friends how I should talk to her... they recommended facebook then slowly move to face to face... Like the idiot I was, I did that. First few days she really liked it, we would smile at each other in school as well... All was good, until I mentioned her brother on facebook... Everything went horribly wrong. Her brother and my brother were friends, but she didn't believe me when I said it.. soon I was the stalker of the school, added weapon for my bullies to use against me because everything else they had been using for the last 4 years had been getting weak. In year 10, I find out she's got herself a guy, he's a rich and "popular" asian kid as compared to me, a brown kid who gets bullied on a daily basis. As I found out, I felt the complete opposite to what I felt when I saw her the first time... So much sadness. Now, 2 years later now the start of 2013, I still have feelings for her and none of the other girls I ever see are more than looks to me like she was. She was a goldmine, a good looking, nice, and kind person. I know it's a lot to read and you probably skimmed through it... but unfortunately I doubt we are both going to the same University... She is stuck in my head, my thoughts are always of her. Unhealthy it may be, I feel happier when I think of her, especially because I am a slightly depressed and low self-esteemed person after years and years of bullying... I avoid new people unintentionally because I am afraid of being judged and bullied again. Luck is never on my side.. One of the bullies are in the same course as me as well.... He saw me on the first day... and smiled.. not a "good to see you" smile, but a "You are so screwed again" smile..
bobsmith76 Posted March 5, 2013 Posted March 5, 2013 Here's a technique that I use. There's a college professor that I'm really obsessed about but she's married. I'm older than her so it's not the standard professor student relationship. I'm 36 and she's probably 32. When I was her student I would spend about an hour in her office about 4 times a month. Plus we exchanged emails with each other constantly. When I was no longer her student she cooled towards me. I don't like hitting on other men's wives so I tried really hard to forget. Finally I found this technique to put her out of my mind. Whenever I caught myself thinking about her I would immediately say No, and I would try really hard to think about something else. The next time I went to the University campus I didn't go over to the building where her office was. I still have trouble forgetting her but I'm making progress.
CudLRoo Posted March 6, 2013 Posted March 6, 2013 You sound like I was at your age, and the same thing happened to me. I completely fluffed it and I've never seen her again but she was one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. She actually went to school me but I was plagued with shyness all my teens, and it's a TOTAL ruiner, especially in a guy. I'd say there was a relatively easy, FREE option that may help you a little bit - 100 press-ups a day, religiously, then as more as you can take, you can get STRONG quick, the bullies won't feel like a problem at all, you'll have more confidence/bravado and a better figure, you can do this in under two weeks, and on your own floor! I didn't do this back then but wish I had. Seriously, might sound like strange advice but please consider giving it a try.
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